+falling starx++**

2008-06-17T17:38:00.003+08:00

now i know,
it's so fragile.

14june,
SINFONIETTA VII(:
morning peiyun lover came my house, she was super early! but i alrdy woke up(: she went to settle some tickets with her friend den came back again. aft tht, took lrt to compass point. meet up with mighty hornists(: sit at mac and waited for 11. bought our food, ate, met may, rushed to sch. started to carry things up and down, board bus, reached vch, started to carry things up and down. had rehearsal, dinner. i was so surprised to see waipo there! she told me she wont be coming for th concert but she still came! im so damn happy! fortunately, she came up th dinner area and i saw her! omg, i was so damn happy! she wanted to buy ticket but th booth was not opened yet, so she went to walk walk first. i went back to dinner area, didnt manage to finish th food. i was full. aft tht, prepared stuffs. got ready. th concert was fun!(: i love it! aft concert, started to clear things. up th bus and back to sch. carry things. dismissed! walked to rivervale plaza for supper at mac. so many ppl you know! all at mac watching soccer. den decided to takeaway and eat outside mac. eat and chat. walked home with jasmine, jingwen, shimin.

MIGHTY SENIORS,
jessica;
thanks so much for coming back to perform with us(: i love you! your have been guiding us ever since sec1 and ever since we joined th mighty section, your never fail to make us feel welcome! i will miss those days we had sectionals together, practice together, go mad and crazy together, go out together, eat together, camp together and all! in band, you are such a great senior and out of band, you are such a great friend(: never fail to listen to my troubles and give me advices! im your baobei junior yea? so you are my baobei senior! i love you and will miss you! miss me too!(:
may;
i miss you! although you didnt come back to perform with us, we seriously miss those times we had with you! even though you didnt come back to perform, you came to watch th concert! we know deep in your heart, you are supporting us till th end! when we saw you at th circle seat there showing us th go go jiayou! sign, we were so damn motivated! your motivation sure worked yea! out of band, you are also a great friend(: you always listen to my troubles and give me advices! even thought sometimes i very stubborn, you will still be there for me! in band, you are also a great senior(: we are your baobei juniors and you are our baobei senior! i love you and miss you! miss me too!(:
fion;
thanks for coming back to help!(: we were really happy tht you came back! and we missed you many too! those times when you were still with us, you never fail to make th section crazy too! and of course get us crazy! must come back more often okay, nanny!(: we need you to take care!
i love you and i miss you! must miss me!(:
xueying;
although you didnt come back, receiving your motivation sms is alrdy very motivating! but of course, if you were there, we will be even more motivated!(: seriously miss you! your smile never fail to cheer us up! because of your cheerful character, we are always so motivated by you! must come back more often! i love you and miss you alot! must miss me too!

15june,
tkgs concert(:
meet those going for th concert at compass point. took mrt to tanjong pagar. reached singapore conference hall. saw mr er and mr neo. started to wait outside th entrance, once entrance open, everybody chiong. th concert was nice(: aft concert, walked to raffles place mrt, took mrt to dhoby ghaut. supper at mac. eat and chat. took mrt to sengkang den took lrt home.

2008-06-17T10:37:00.050+08:00

tkgs concert ; 150608

natalie(:

esther(:

after concert, she's so mad

a better one

my mighty juniors(:

mighty lover(:

peiyun(:

jingwen(:

shimin(:

weili(:

brenda(:

jasmine nuer(:

linjia(:

xiaohui(:

lichiun(:

sean(:

jason(:

jielin(:

mitchell(:

mitchell!

kenneth(:

kenneth!

jocelyn(:

adila(:

loveeeee(:

shh, secret shot 1!

SHH! secret shot 2!

band concert ; 140608

girls room(:

PEIYUN MIGHTY(:

you are my mighty & lover(:

simon korkor(:

jocelyn, mighty junior(:

adila, mighty junior(:

bryan, mighty junior(:

peiyun, mighty(:

jocelyn & peiyun

peiyun & adila

peiyun & bryan

lovers(:

joyce(:

shimin(:

saiful(:

jingwen(:

natalie(:

brenda(:

esther(:

hanu(:

weili(:

2008-06-08T23:32:00.002+08:00

tagged by chaiyuan(:

A people who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
B tag 8 people to do this quiz.

1 if your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
how can you?!
2 if you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
everything goes well.
3 what will your dream wedding be like?
simple(:
4 are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
okayokay?
5 what's your ideal lover like?
like tht?
6 which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
both(: cannot compare you know.
7 how long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
i never know. it can be a forever thing?
8 if the person you secretly like is attached already, what would you do?
give my blessings(:
9 is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
MANY. but i hope it will get better.
10 is being tagged fun?
okayokay?
11 how do you see yourself in ten years time?
working like mad.
12 who are currently the most important people to you?
girls, hornists, love.
13 what kind of person do you think the one tagged you is?
friendly.
14 would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
happy can le la.
15 what's the first thing you do every morning?
look for my handphone. cos when i sleep, my phone will fly here and there.
16 would you give all in a relationship?
nope.
17 if you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
none.
18 what type of friends do you like?
th friends i have now(:
19 what type of friends do you dislike?
hmm, i also dont know.

C the person who tagged me is CHAIYUAN.
8 ppl, up to you ppl(:

2008-06-08T21:45:00.002+08:00

how can you just leave me alone?

3june-5june,
band camp! let me say more abt it!
first day, sectional in th morning, combined in th afternoon. dinner, practice until 10. 1130 lights off. but me, joyce and shimin were so damn energetic! cos we came to a topic abt disorders! and we were so into th topic tht we slept around 3plus.
second day, woke up around 7? washed up and stuffs. mr tan took us for pt. breakfast, sectional, combined, dinner, practice, 1115 lights off. this time we talk until 1plus jiu sleep le.
third day, woke up around 715. weird you know. we slept late on first day and woke up early th next day. but on th third day, we slept early and woke up late! anw, was late for fall in. stayed in fall in position quite long. did jumping jacks, hundred over times? aft tht, did a dont know wht exercise, must lift your hand horizontal up straight and cannot put down. so tired. did push ups again, run one round around th sch. aft tht, breakfast. didnt had appetite. feel so much like vomitting. in th end, peiyun feed me(: aft tht, practice. all th way, den break camp. aft tht, went to compass point with esther to print photos. bought waffle and ate on th way home. nice nice(: around 9plus, esther came my house to do presents. she left around 11plus going 12. she damn worried you know, so late le.

6june,
met peiyun on th way to lrt. den reached compass point and met nat at montip. ordered cake. set off to hougang. shopped for agar agar stuffs. takeaway kfc. bused to natalie's house. had our meals. den peiyun, shimin and brenda reached. started our agar agar session. so nice you know! end of th day, got th wrong instructions! den 8plus came to my house to do. do until 1plus with jingwen and shimin. so late again! damn worried! had lots of fun(:

7june,
mr er's birthday! practiced. celebrated. th failed agar agar, we girls ate it. girls, you know who you are!(: had games. quite fun. aft band, went home. had dinner alone.

8june,
met up with jingwen and took lrt to compass point. meet peiyun. took mrt to buangkok meet brenda. went to esplanade to watch beautiful sunday, sparks band concert. yuhua and lihua? alumni. nice nice nice! so many solos and all so lihai! aft concert, went to marina square mac to eat. when leaving mac, saw elicia(: aft tht, bused to chinatown myself to meet up with family. had dinner. went home.

2008-06-07T20:43:00.002+08:00

when will it be th day we meet again?

band camp,
3june-5june,
i love this band camp!(: my section juniors are super fun and loving! hohos!

7june,
celebrated mr er's birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR ER!(:

2008-05-29T20:24:00.025+08:00

i dont want everything to end,
but it just seemed to go against us.

28may,
had sectional in th morning until 1130. rushed home with peiyun to change slippers. took lrt to compass point. takeaway at mac. met up with esther, natalie, jingwen, shimin, brenda. took bus27 to ikea. start our madness! haha. real fun la. whatever we see at ikea, we can just think of some ideas & play! i love them! finally had some serious time when deciding on th present. & aft tht, madness again! went to giant, took photos in th toilet. outside lift, in lift, anywhere! we can just sit down & start taking photos! haha. play, chat & all. when going home, all of us stopped at th overhead bridge & started talking for one hour or two hours? haha. finally left tht overhead bridge. jingwen & brenda went to change clothes. me, peiyun, esther, natalie, shimin went to take bus27 home. walked with shimin when alighted. went home.

29may,
almost late for band. but managed to reach in time. saw esther on th way. band practice. dingxiang came to teach horn. aft tht, went for lunch. did file check, esther bought food for me. went to collect report book. results are like, i dont know wht to say. went back for band. aft band, went compass point with esther. met her sister. bought stuffs. see them eat. took bus with jingwen home. went home.

edited photos!

GIANT!

understand? we are all so sad!

thts how mad we can go!

random!

demureness(:

AHLIANS(:

im falling!

we do a LOVE!

they were trying to style my hair using th static force caused between my hair & th wall!

thts how we want someone to take photos(:

potential hairstylists doing my hair(:

NICE?(:

IKEA!

she's jealous.

she's even more jealous!

see th colour contrast of my leg?

th emo one & th happy one.

girls of th day!(:

we form a LOVE!

guess who's tht behind?

we say, smile!

toilet madness.

scary?

kitchen is love(:

they cross wine cups,

we cross food plates!

ONE BIG FAMILY!

FAMILY DINNER!

beds at ikea are simply too comfortable!

natalie's th lead(:

ninjas!

2008-05-27T19:39:00.003+08:00

im so tired.
tired of all.

well, ytd was a fun day(:
met up with peiyun lover at amk hub. had our meal at foodcourt. aft tht, shopped around. but couldnt find anything. so decided to take bus132 to fareast plaza. went fareast plaza. shopped like mad girls. still couldnt find anything. saw shimin, joyce, xiaowei. in th end, jessica came to our rescue! hohos. went taka. finally bought! ate at mac. chat happily! went to buy box for present. took mrt to amk. went amk hub again. peiyun went home, jess went to find her aunt, i went to meet my mother. aft tht, my father came. he bought me 2tops! hohos. aft tht, went home.

today is tiring.
band! practice practice practice. had committee meeting, went home.

is everything getting better?
i want to tell you girls,
but im afraid tht things will get worse.
i really enjoyed tht day,
its as though everything started afresh.
and im so damn happy.
but i realised,
everything seemed to stop at tht moment,
this point.
well, it should be me thinking too much.
i cant talk to anyone alrdy,
cause no one seems to be there.
all are so occupied,
and i dont want to trouble them.

2008-05-25T16:38:00.002+08:00

boring day):
i was being forced to wake up this morning. went down to rivervale mall's foodcourt to have breakfast. i bought my food & sat down. den i saw one cockroach running out from my brother's food th basket. i was like WHATTHEHELL! den i looked under th table & saw th cockroach! when my maid came back with her food, she tried to remove th cockroach under th table. in th end, TWO more cockroaches appeared. den when i sit down & intend to look under th table again, one small cockroach appeared! i was like OHMYGOD! EEK! in th end, my mother say change table. i almost vomitted while eating. its so damn disgusting! den when my brother pour his drink into his cup, a dead cockroach was floating in it! ohmygoddddd! eat until halfway, i happen to turn to one stall th counter & one cockroach was crawling around there! OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD! i really cant stand it! my mother say she might lodge a complain. IMAGINE, you goto th foodcourt for just one meal & bumped into six cockroaches in all! disgusting! aft meal, went ntuc. went home. im so not feeling well):

hope tht everything will be fine(:

2008-05-24T20:27:00.002+08:00

everything's not th same anymore,
you are not you,
and im not me.
smiles are always on th strong willed faces(:

band(:
felt hungry in th morning, went econ to buy bun. bumped into brenda. in th end, went sch with her. fall in, morning run and settled down in band room. practiced, break for lunch at 1230. lunched with peiyun, jingwen & brenda cos esther & natalie had to wait for sec1s. aft lunch, combined. fall out. chat at lrt, discussed some stuffs. had a crazy laugh. haha. aft tht, went home.
random,
i accidentally ate a 2months expired potato chips a few days ago,
& just now i accidentally ate a spoiled fruit.
im eating rubbish these few days.

im so down. i dont feel th love.

2008-05-23T20:44:00.003+08:00

everything seems so far now.
i want it to be close,
once again,
as close as before.

im so lonely today):
liza went korea, erika ponned sch. fortunately got qiuling accompany, cos her clique also not around. from assembly until dismissal, we kept receiving holiday assignments. ohmygod! & its alot you know! i tried doing some of it just now, but im not in th mood! aft dismissal, had lunch & went for band. warmed up & stuffs. band members, lets work hard for concert!(: ended band early, because its th 'eat with your family' day. what a day! haha. aft tht, went to econ. natalie left first. actually wanted to go compass point with peiyun & jingwen. in th end, didnt go, cos didnt know wht to do if we went there. went home.

love,
we seem to be drifting apart.
i dont know why.
maybe its me thinking too much?
but you know,
its like a gap is starting to push us apart.
whts happening to us?
i really dont know.
& i really dont want us to end.
remember our promise?
lovelove.

2008-05-22T17:59:00.002+08:00

i want to run away from this world,
and make my way to your world.

you make me happy by giving me smiles,
you make me sad by giving me tears,
you make me angry by giving me ,
you make me loved by giving me your heart,
and tht's all i ever need.

boring sch day):
history, watched movie; the pursuit of happyness. yes, happYness. math, viewed many photos of speech day. chemistry, did physics worksheet. recess. biology, go through paper. chinese, mrs yong came & wanted us to do summary on th article; SMILE. You're in a relationship. dismissed. had lunch with peiyun lover & adila. sectional, adila & jocelyn went off. me & peiyun continued to practice until 5plus den went off. bought bubble teaaaaa! went home. im so damn tired!

lovelove,
i miss you(:

2008-05-21T22:04:00.002+08:00

angel & liza going off to korea tmr & im very sad):
cos it will be lonely days for me.
BUT, it wont be lonely with erika in class(:
with peiyun lover, natalie, eunice.

alright,

ytd was a regretful day): cos, I SHOULD HAVE PON-ED TH DAMN MATH TRAIL!
it was somehow like an amazing race, held UNDER TH HOT SUN, around th cbd area. oh, whatthehell. we were like dont know wht walking under th hot sun just to complete th worksheet?! REGRET!): but anw, dismissed & saw peiyun on th way to meet love. den walked tgt. accompany peiyun for awhile. went off to have lunch. went home.

today is not a regretful day(: cos, th sexuality workshop was quite interesting. im not horny okay. our coach was coach yvonne. i like her(: cos she's nice! hohos. aft tht, recess, then q&a session for th workshop. aft tht, math. but didnt have th mood to do anything. because of th DAMN HOT WEATHER! why isit so damn hot nowadays?! forget it. dismissed. went home. met love at compass point, den met munir & serene. had lunch. went downtown east to visit th new shopping mall. cos i didnt go before. its, okay? nothing big to make me go, 'OHMYGOD! ITS SO DAMN NICEEEEE!' yeayea, went arcade. love & munir play play play. me & serene see see see. played a game with love. hohos. so fun! i so long never play at arcade le. always go but never play. anw, aft tht, took bus back to sengkang. went home.

lovelovelove,
oh hoho, iloveyou(:

2008-05-19T21:38:00.002+08:00

ohmygod. today is so damn boring!
woke up around 11am. watched tv. mother bought takeaway for me. had lunch at home. watched tv & came online. aft tht, went offline & watched tv again. i just stayed at home & watched tv th whole day! went compass point to have dinner. walked around. bought a clothe & stockings at metro. came home. watched tv again! thts all!

love, you still owe me posts!
hohos!

2008-05-18T18:46:00.004+08:00

im back from east coast park!
a super tired day!
was being forced to wake up around 1045. i want more sleep! went to ntuc to buy some stuffs. went to tampines area to eat prawn noodle with family. travelled down to east coast park. no bicycle for me to cycle): stayed in th tent & smsed. finally, time to go home! came home. & now super tired! thts all!

imisslove!(:

2008-05-17T17:39:00.002+08:00

oh, yay yay yay(:

friday,
went to sch. checked papers. i failed 3subjects): amath, biology & ss. expected. & teachers always like to give me surprises. gave me extra 1mark for my math paper1 & extra 10marks for chinese paper2. TEN MARKS YOU KNOW! gave me false hope): but i was honest(: i told teacher. im so not looking forward to sch. cos as lessons will resume as per normal next week. i dont want to go! exams are over & we still have to study): boos! alright. aft sch, went home & went out to meet love. we wasted 2hours on settling some things. & tht 2hours i was starving like mad. finally went to buy food. aft tht, went home.

today,
woke up around 10am. aft tht, went out to meet love. had breakfast at sengkang cc. took bus27 to tampines mall. go starhub to change th cabletv box. & they say need to return th cable & i didnt bring. wth. so decided to come home & take again. & bused back to tampines mall. had cheese fries with love at century square at th food culture foodcourt. th mayo tasted BAD! ohmygod. & love still say its nice. different ppl, different tastebuds. aft tht, walked around. took bus27 back to sengkang & went home. thanks love for accompanying me th whole day!(: im so sorry tht i cant accompany you back at sengkang!):

im so not looking forward to tmr.
sentosa with family.
UNLESS, i get tanned(:

2008-05-15T21:20:00.002+08:00

IT'S SUCH A BORING DAY! ):
woke up around 11am. had instant noodles for breakfast. it tasted disgusting! i dont know why, maybe because i got tired of it. i had been having instant noodles for th week! oh, wth. came online. surfed th net. watched tv. im so bored you know! even until now): there's sch tomorrow. okay, good night people!(:

2008-05-14T20:43:00.009+08:00

HELLOS WORLDDDDD!(:
im super happy & high today!
its th last paper today. math paper2. i flunk my math papers. dont ask me why, maybe because im too stupid(: aft exam, went band room, accompany peiyun collect tickets. went home. prepared & stuffs. took bus82 to hougang.
meet up with natalie, esther, enqi, eunice, boonyuen, weehan, jiajun, jingcong. went to th video rental shop to rent a ghost movie to watch at natalie's house. took bus165 to nat house. i almost faint in th bus, car sickkkkk. reached. started to watch th movie. its really scary. th girls are screaming th whole roof down! you know, cos its so scary! everyone hugged a pillow just to cover our faces & eyes from th scary scenes. haha! nat called for mac delivery. when th deliveryboy came, FORTUNATELY, we were changing th second vcd. or not th doorbell will scare us to death! when they were at th door paying for mac, me & weehan didnt have th guts to push in th vcd & press play. cos we were too afraid tht there will be a super scary scene once it starts playing & th player doesnt have a pause button. so when we pushed in, we realised no pause button! & quickly open th vcd slot again! haha! settled down. ate & watched at th same time. & we were like eating halfway & screaming our lungs out! too scary. aft movie ended, started our games session. hohos! twister, piano & some of them, poker cards(:
TWISTER WAS TH GAME OF TH DAY!
you know, you have to put your hands & feets on th colour you turned on th board. & its like, you can split, stretch & all. aft th whole day, my legs went soft. haha! & piano! fun fun! im esther's left hand! & th song eunice play is super nice! i want to learn! hohoho! kelvin joined us later on. & twister went on. esther & weehan kept playing, cos esther kept losing to weehan. & when she play with me, she also lose. th reason is because i broke th rule! haha! poor girl. but she should be th winner for th game of ours, cos i broke th rule. aft tht, enqi & eunice had to leave early. went on with twister still. aft tht, piano! hohos! i miss playing on th organ & piano! anw, left around 6plus? took bus132 with esther. had a nice chat!(: & took mrt & lrt home.

LOOK HERE!
COMPASSVALE MILITARY BAND CONCERT
venue: victoria concert hall
date: 14june2008; saturday
time: 730pm
stall seat: $10
circle seat: $15
ANYONE INTERESTED?
pls contact me through sms or leave me a tag!
& i will get to you!

GAME OF THE DAY; TWISTER!

natalie! she was hoho-ing!

esther! twister girl of th day!

enqi! twister dancer!

eunice! another twister dancer!

boonyuen! bingqilin!

she's trying to cool down(:

look at enqi's sexy legs!

th guy is weehan! & th girls, your should know!

it's hard to twist & turn you know!

weehan is so happy over winning esther.

& esther keep losing to weehan.

they are competing.

th obscene shot!

boonyuen joined in!

GELARE;

my leftover waffle icecream;
chocolate waffle topped with jamaican chocolate!

2008-05-13T21:36:00.003+08:00

im here again!(:
i stayed at home th whole day until 5plus, went to hougang mall & met up with my mother & grandmother. had dinner at th hougang mall kopitiam. i MUST tell you guys, th western food there is BAD BAD BAD! disgusting! you know, chicken chop, th gravy is brown colour one, theirs is ORANGE colour one! OHMYGODDDDD! can you believe it? wth lor. wasted my mother's 5.50bucks! i still so mian qiang tell my mother, 'woa, its simply so 'DELICIOUS'!', cos she asked if it was nice. & my grandmother was like, 'so disgusting also nice?!', in chinese. aft tht, walked around & went to gelare for icecream! had chocolate chip waffle topped with jamaican chocolate icecream(: its super nice, BUT i eventually got too full & felt disgusted by th chocolaty taste): left twoeighth of th waffle untouched. & i almost drank my grandmother's whole bottle of water down. when she take, she was like, 'WA! left so little?!' i replied, 'never mind, i help you buy one more! hehes:D' can you believe tht it was my grandmother who jio-ed us to go gelare for icecream because she remembered that tuesday, gelare waffle will be discounted by half price. & we didnt manage to eat it tht time, & she jio-ed us to go eat today! haha! my grandmother is super cute!(: i simply love her so much! how i wish she stays with me, but she dont want to come stay with us, cos she prefers her own cosy house! but she is a super sweet, loving & caring grandmother! aft gelare, went home!

ps. i miss love super lots! get well soon!(:
& i so want a class outing!(:

2008-05-13T10:22:00.003+08:00

no matter where we are,
anywhere with you,
will be th most wonderful moment.

have you ever watched a movie halfway through & left?
i did, just, yesterday. this was wht happened.
went to meet munir & serene. took bus27 to tampines mall. went mac to wait for love. he's super slow! munir say, when he reach le use th file to hit him. hohos. went to gv to buy movie tickets. lunched at long john silver. bought popcorn & went in. watched What happens in Vegas. super funny! BUT, watch until halfway, mother want me go home. wth! so, left halfway through ): im sorry, love! waited for bus27. den love say bus72 reach hougang very fast. so listened to him. end up, bus72 really can reach hougang real 'FAST'! had to rush like mad when reached sengkang. finally reached home.

today,
history paper. i forget alot of points ): i think im going to fail my mye like mad. but still, hope tht i wont fail ba(: & now, IM SO BORED! cant meet love today.

ps. TOMORROW IS FREEDOM DAY!(:

2008-05-12T11:38:00.008+08:00

super cute brother, darryl!(:

he loves to take photos!

super cute cousin, eldrick!(:

i like this! hohos! super cute baby yawning:D

he's watching th tv.

one day in class(: , erika say, 'take a photo of them!' haha(:

JESSICA'S BIRTHDAY!(:

thts all!:D

2008-05-12T11:21:00.002+08:00

1may; HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOONYUEN!(:
5may; HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHAIYUAN!(:
6may; HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!(: & HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHENYANG!(:
7may; HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESTHER!(:
10may; HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAIPO!(:
11may; HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEWEI!(:
11may; HAPPY MUMMY's DAY!(:

this month got so many ppl birthday eh. still gt more coming up.
physics paper today. i flunked th paper): i dont know how to count frequency & those stupid stuffs la. came back super early. love fang wo aeroplane lor. say want meet up for breakfast, aft tht say want sleep. so stayed at home & did nothing. im super boreddddd! ):

ytd;
intended to have dinner at no signboard at geylang to celebrate grandmother's birthday. end up too many ppl, so went bedok 85 to have dinner. no cake, but got lots of food. went home aft tht.

saturday;
intended to go out with love. love ask me go his house first. end up, he sleep th whole day. i keep disturbing him. & i stared at videos & videos th whole day. super boring day too! ):

my days are starting to get boring ): i want exam faster over! i want go outtttt!

2008-05-09T19:46:00.002+08:00

AM I HAPPY?
saw angel's blog, & felt alot ):
i dont want to lie to myself anymore.
but its all because of, cant get over it.

OKAYOKAY!(: back to normal!
chemistry paper today! okayokay? but i know, i last minute forgot alot of things): walked to lrt with eunice. went home. watched tv & used laptop at home to kill time. finally its 11! & went off to meet love at compass point. had lunch. aft lunch at kfc, saw jess, may, junjie, mitchell, benette at swensens. haha. gt miss anyone out? i abit blur at tht time:D walked around. went to watch anime. aft tht, went to pasamalam walk walk. bought cup corn, love bought muah chee. th cup corn is 'nice'! super no taste, super not sweet, super not salty. wth. walked home. love say i tie my hair until very nice! hohos! im so happy over tht comment!:D hehes!

PEOPLE, WORK HARD FOR MYE!:D

2008-05-08T18:06:00.002+08:00

im feeling super super unwell!
i have been feeling like this for many many days!
whts wrong with me? ):
its really unwell, sick.
but i dont know wht is going on.

math paper1; okayokay?
amath; didnt know how to do any of th questions, except one or two?
social studies; i left reliability last paragraph!
biology; i did one essay question & for tht question, i really put in huge effort!

bye people!(:

2008-05-06T16:44:00.002+08:00

th stupid hot weather is making me so unwell ):
im feeling so unwell now. & even in sch.
sch today is boring?
i slept throughout math lesson & tmr is math paper1!
i must be mad. at least i paid attention during amath(:
i dont feel like revising now.
was quite affected by something just now.
but now okay le.
anyone out there can go out to study?
i miss my seniors,
i miss lover!

2008-05-03T08:35:00.002+08:00

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
ytd was a tiring day? early in th morning super hot. but th sky suddenly so dark, so we thought going to rain. end up, th sun come out again! aft 1230, gt amath asp. i was super quiet you know. why? cos liza & erika werent there! haha. i almost fell asleep during th asp. ended at 2pm. walked home under th hot sun. its really HOT. wash up & stuffs. lrted to compass point to meet love. aft tht, eat eat eat & stuffs. bused home. had dinner. did revision & all.

today is a painful day! some ppl will know why(: super pain can! pain until going die le. anw, meeting love later for breakfast & going to study. thts all! th reason why i woke up so early was because of girls stuffs. made me cant sleep. stupid.

strong girl loves stupid boy!Y

2008-05-01T12:03:00.002+08:00

表面上,
我们一直在走.
内心里,
我们其实一直都没有踏出一步.
还是原地踏步,
还是在当初的那个地方.
叫我乐观地面对这件事,
就如是在叫我自己骗自己,
因为, 事实是,
事情已经不能再挽回了.
一切已经在七个月前有答案了.
坚持只不过会增加那些痛苦,
增加那些对我的厌烦.
口口声声,
一再又一再,
称说把对方当成朋友,
但内心却不认同自己所说的.
是时候应该放弃了吧?

my mind always remind me of memories of th past.
even though i know things cant be th same,
i dont know why am i still holding on so tightly.
im trying so hard to let it go.
seriously.
i want to let it go.
but gradually, i will once again tell myself,
things will get better.
ohmygod.
why am i so mad?

SIMIN IS A STRONG GIRL!(:
& A HAPPY GIRL!
who loves th ppl around her,
& loves ppl who loves her!:D

2008-04-30T17:11:00.003+08:00

because love is not about regrets.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JESSICA!(:
SUPER HOT DAY!
i dont know what the hell is wrong about the weather these few days, but its just damn hot! imagine, early in th morning you are going for exams, but even before you reached sch you are alrdy sweating like mad? how can you take exams under this kind of circumstances?! it will only distract you lor! & today i asked liza, 'liza, i ask you ar. how long do you think such hot weather is going to be?' she told me, 'hmm, abt 3months?' i gave her tht what th hell expression. its really, what th hell! 3months! i rather singapore everyday rain. i rather buy a few more shoes to standby at home just in case my shoes got soaked. th stupid hot weather is really distracting me from studying! not only me! alot more ppl! i shall cool down. th hot weather spoiled my day. chemistry asp, i was more to complaining th hot weather than concentrating. totally cant concentrate! miss beh still extend th time longer! even more pissed off. i had th urge to just walk out of th class & run back home to shower! this stupid hot weather is going to cause alot of ppl to fall sick lor. & still got exams. anw, i finally understand alittle bit of balancing of chemical equations aft chemistry asp. got concentrate for awhile? haha. i feel so restless today. didnt want to go sch at first. think think. exams coming le, later never go sch, miss important things how? im a good girl okay!:D

FIRST LOVE; utada hikaru
Saigo no kisu wa
Tabako no flavor ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaori

Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Anata wa doko ni iru n' darou
Dare wo omotte 'ru n' darou

You are always gonna be my love
Itsu ka dare ka to mata koi ni ochite mo
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made

Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugoki-dasou to shite 'ru
Wasuretaku nai koto bakari

Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Watashi wa kitto naite 'ru
Anata wo omotte 'ru n' darou

You will always be inside my heart
Itsu mo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made

You are always gonna be my love
Itsu ka dare ka to mata koi ni ochite mo
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love song
Now and forever...

2008-04-28T18:27:00.003+08:00

th ninth month love,
a wonderful one.

hellos people.
my blog seems dead eh.
today is a very very tiring day! had english & chinese paper1 today. super tired you know. i slept for the last 15mins of my chinese paper. finally can go home! super hot day! was sweating like mad when i reached home? washed up & stuffs. went to compass point to meet love. took train to dhoby ghaut, & during th journey, we were playing each other's handphone. & we were super serious while playing! until we reached dhoby ghaut den back to normal. went to th b1 couple lab. then, dont know why love say want go third floor one? th salesgirl super good! its like we took so long to make our decision, yet she's not irritated. you know, some salesgirl will show you their 'face' if you take too long to decide. she's a super nice girl!(: took abt half an hour to decide? finally. love sacrificed alot just for today. & its ALOT. thanks love!(: went to kfc to have my first meal for th day. finally ate something! walked around. took train back to sengkang. walked around. bought present. walked home.
thanks love!:D

HAPPY 9th month anniversary!
iloveyou.
& iloveyou more everyday.

2008-04-24T20:57:00.003+08:00

because im a girl,
a very strong girl.
my tears drop easily,
but i can hold on tightly.
when i lose my grip,
you tell me, 'i will be there for you'

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, KELVIN!(: ;23april
HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY, NATALIE!(: ;25april

ytd; 23april
lessons are as usual, boring. recess, azimah came to find me say general office gt ppl find me. i went with her. th person say my mother's colleague want me call their office. called her, & damn stupid things happened. dont want to mention. made me cry. thanks esther & enqi for consolings! went back class. keep running out of class during lessons to make calls to my mother & father. aft sch, had lunch with enqi, boonyuen, weehan, jiajun. den went for detention with enqi. i hai dao enqi one. stupid detention la. so damn tiring! me & enqi cleaned up abt 3 science labs! & did some other stuffs. finally 6! precious come fetch me. walked home!:D
precious, you really make my day(:

today!
i sort of paid attention during lessons! haha! actually didnt want to stay back for amath asp, cos not compulsory ma. den like gt alot ppl go, jiu went. learnt many things! aft tht, left sch. waited for precious at bus stop. precious pei me walk home!:D

2008-04-21T21:30:00.002+08:00

STRAWBERRY POCKY IS SUPER NICE & SWEET TODAY!:D
cos its from precious(:

what a nice start off for th day. i woke up super late! & chionged like mad. i even tied my hair before letting it dry & rushed to sch. videos videos videos! watch until super sian. recess. amath, i paid attention:D bt only alittle bit. cos i dont even understand th question, mdm chua alrdy go on to th next question. lce, we asked for our roleplay to be postponed:D physics, wht a lullaby lesson! i slept throughout th whole lesson! i told myself, 'SIMIN! EXAMS COMING! CANNOT SLEEP!' end up, miss koh teach until so boring. so many ppl fell asleep can! biology, i forgot to bring my notes. so, i didnt pay attention(: dismissed. jio angel pei wo eat lunch. den angel help me cut queue, den i help junkai buy also:D had lunch with angel & junkai. den liza & erika came. chat with peiyun lover & jess mighty! walked around th sch with liza, erika, rachel & sophia to aid digestion. haha. den reported to hall for napfa 2.4km.
napfa 2.4km run was a 'wth' run!
at first, me, liza & erika were running tgt. not long, liza disappeared. then, erika disappeared. den aft tht, run run run. saw erika again. run run run. erika suddenly not feeling well. den she sit down, so i continued. den later on, saw erika again. den i run run run. she dont know go where le. aft tht, stomach pain and legs tired. i walked. I SERIOUSLY REGRETTED WALKING! wth lor. den run to th finishing point. saw angel with a cup of water. took from him:D & kept asking him to refill. thanks!(: went to buy mineral water. waited for precious to come fetch me.
he's a dumb dumb!:D haha! i dont know why also. den stood at th lrt provision shop there quite long. cos i didnt know wht i want to buy. end up, i decided STRAWBERRY POCKY!:D & precious pei me walk home. i accidentally bit his fingers again! haha! & he purposely pinched me so many many times lor! so pain so pain leh!
but still, I LOVE PRECIOUS!:D
& im super tired! dont feel like going sch tmr!

PRECIOUS PRECIOUS!

2008-04-19T21:58:00.003+08:00

edited; 19april, saturday
I LOVE TODAY!:D
morning, i woke up around 8plus. couldnt get back to sleep. so did some things. den went to bathe around 9plus. aft tht, nothing to do. so went to make up. in th end, make up until nice nice le, i go remove. haha! cos later i scared will be very not nice. precious came to fetch me. took bus86 to amk hub! went to buy th clothe i wanted! yay yay yay! went for our lunch at mac. super full! den munir & s reached. met up with them. walked around amk hub. den went arcade. precious & munir play. me & s watch. den aft tht, trained to dhoby ghaut. went to arcade. met up with robin & his friend, johnny. den they play. aft tht, walked to parklane. simon joined us later. went pool! precious teach me! its super fun can! haha! den see them play play play. aft tht, went to plaza singapura. sit at mac rest. den s & me have to go le. jiu went off tgt with her, precious & munir. s & munir alighted at their stop. den precious alighted at buangkok & i alighted at sengkang. took lrt to rumbia & went home! today is a fun fun fun day!
iloveprecious!:D

2008-04-16T22:53:00.003+08:00

EMO EMO EMO! ):
i feel so useless.
i feel so sad.
i feel so down.
i feel so weird.
i feel so dead.
i dont believe tht feelings can go numb,
until i experienced it myself.
tht point of time,
i thought im dead.
totally no feelings.
where did it went to?
fortunately it came back, i have to say.
but when th feelings came back,
tears just pour like nobody's business.
i tried to stop, to no avail.
now, i cant even cry.
dehydrated i guess.
quite ridiculous la.
i didnt believed tht feelings can go numb until i experienced it myself.

i want to cheer up.
i want to smile.
i want to be happy.
i want to be carefree.
i want to be th kohsimin,
th happy, cheerful, crazy, mad, kohsimin.
whts there to motivate me?
well, my mind will go blank whenever i think of this.

erika prettaye,
thanks for th 'mad' consolings & conversation!:D
lovelove!

angel,
you are always fit to be my angel:D
rmb to pei wo slack!

2008-04-14T22:45:00.003+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY DAY!:D
my morning wasnt a happy one. i was feeling so unwell ): called precious & talked to him awhile before leaving for sch. reached sch. COMBINED PHYSICS/CHEMISTRY ST! disaster eh.. i dont know how to do th whole physics paper. chemistry, i only know how to do mcq. today's st, FLUNKED!(: amath, polynomials so damn confusing! i really dont want to fail my amath eh. but th stuffs just dont go into my head! lce, waste of time. physics, teacher anyhow scold ppl eh. i never stir vigorously lor! biology, stuffs dont get into my head!! chemistry test, i actually asked teacher for answer indirectly? haha! i dont understand, but teacher say, 'dont understand ar? den you unlucky lor.' i was like.. 'uh..' but quite ridiculous la. its a test you know! haha! aft sch, went home & bathed. 4plus left house. saw jasmine in lrt, aft jas alighted, saw natalie! haha:D reached compass point! went to print photos & stuffs. den saw munir & s.
went to pizza hut & ordered first while waiting for precious. precious is slow! hehes:D finally, precious reached! had our meal! yumyum! precious's treat eh! thanks precious!:D aft meal, go walk walk. den went swensens for earthquake icecream. munir's treat! thanks munir!:D haha! aft tht, precious actually want pei me walk home. but my parents come fetch me ): sorry precious.
happyhappyday!:D
thts all!
iloveyou, precious!
PEOPLE, ILOVEYOUALL!:D

2008-04-13T15:44:00.003+08:00

oh man oh man!
i dont feel like studying for tmr's st!
wht should i do?
there's no motivation at all!
th past motivation,
those happytimes,
i seriously miss.
i miss, i miss & i seriously do!
forget it.
just fail my st ba.
dont care le.
for th whole week, i dont have th mood for study.
& now too.
TIRED!
just thought of th past & all..

你曾经陪我跑的那段路,
我们曾经有过的那些快乐,
你们曾经无论风风雨雨地陪着我,
我们曾经一起度过的开心与伤心,
为彼此擦泪，安慰彼此,
这些已成为了你们的过去,
成为了我最珍贵的回忆.
放弃，虽不是最好的选择,
但也不是最坏的选择.
或许只有这样,
你们才会开心.
我的存在，不再重要了.

2008-04-11T21:40:00.002+08:00

HELLOS PEOPLEEEEE!:D
im backkkkk! (: haha! so long never come post le uh? i shall post abt some normal stuffs.

TODAY!
mdm chua finally came back to our rescue! oh yea! but im naughty, i still didnt pay attention in class. so damn tired can? & we had amath test. i was very restless. i stared at th paper for like 40mins? & i dont even know how to do one question, i dont understand any question. den i was like so tired & i slept throughout th test! i guess im going to get ZERO! normal la. i got back my logarithms test. & i got 3/20. expected. i got so pissed off by amath & said something which i never expected i would say. 'I WANT TO DROP AMATH LE LA!' bt i dont want eh. i just felt so useless & stressed up. these few days, whatever teacher teach, it just cant get into my brain! physics, i dont know th chapters which teacher taught. i dont understand anything at all. all copy copy. chemistry, same. math, i got make effort to try but once i dont know how to do, i give up & copy! biology, teacher alrdy staring on new chapters & th past chapters, i know nothing. amath, i dont understand th whole chapter 3. i dont know why im studying la. im failing all my tests & all these. not even in th mood to study can. go to sch, sleep & stare. i rather stay at home. okay, back to topic. aft sch, band. warm up & stuffs. i was so bored until i kill my time by drawing french horn! i was so happy drawing can! normally i would get pissed off whenever my lines go wavy wavy. maybe because peiyun praise me! say i draw nice!:D haha! potential art student, but is a d&t student, praise me leh! happy happy!:D aft band, stomach damn pain. cant even stand properly. den rushed home to rest. & now im here:D

ytd!
sch was as normal. aft sch, band. home:D

wednesday!
stomach pain pain la! julia lim still asking my try doing 5stations. aft doing sit up, stomach more more pain! oh hell. den was like pain & pain & pain th whole day. aft sch, jess accompany me walk to precious house. it was a hot hot day! thanks jess!:D watched anime, chat chat, den went home.

tuesday!
i forgot wht happened in sch. aft sch, went home & washed up. den went compass point to meet precious. den had lunch. den he pei wo bus to amk hub. den he went off.

ohmy.. im tired. dont want post le. haha:D

take care people! loves!

2008-03-30T00:21:00.038+08:00

MIGHTY HORNISTS 2008!

ADILA! MIGHTY JUNIOR!

PEIYUN LOVER!

MIGHTY GIRLS!

LOVELOVE:D

PEIYUNNNNN!

JESSICA! MIGHTY SENIOR!

JESSICA!

MAY!

JESSICAAAAA!

LOVER LOVER!

MIGHTY MIGHTY!

MIGHTY HORNISTS!

MR ER!

MR ERRRRR!

ME, MR ER, LOVER!

KIMBERLY! CHIEF!

ARTHUR!

JUNJIE! THE XIAOS!

XINYUAN!

SINGYEEEEEE! LONG LOST SISTERS:D

JASMINE NUER!

SAIFUL! 7 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP!

SIMINS!

LINLIN! WE ARE THE CHIEF LIBRARIANS:D

ZHENGHAO CURRENT!

WENXUAN! FLOWER BOY:D

ESTHER!

TEQUAN!

MICHELLE! LIBRARIANS!

NATALIE!

XIAOHUI!

BRENDA!

JINGWEN!

SHUXIAN!

MR TAN!

LOVER, SHIMIN, ME, JOYCE!

SHIMIN, ME, JOYCE!

2008-03-29T22:16:00.003+08:00

HELLOS PEOPLE!
ytd was speech day! & im super super sad! ): cos my mighty seniors are stepping down. MIGHTY SENIORS, I WILL MISS YOU GIRLS! hope your like th present? okay! start from morning. early in th morning house meeting. chemistry, amath, english, dismissed! may & peiyun accompany me go home. we chat alot eh! zhen xin hua!:D den changed to half u. lrt-ed to compass point meet jessica. lunch-ed at yoshinoya! walked back to sch. on th way, many things happened which made jess & me scream & laugh like mad girls! haha! at first, we walk walk walk, den suddenly one chameleon appear, den me & jess were like, 'EEEEE! OHMYGOD! AHHHHH!' den may & peiyun still continue walking! den from tht time onwards, th both of us never stop screaming & laughing. walk until junction there, saw a guy with exploded hairstyle. laugh until we peng! may say he needs 4hours to shampoo his hair & 3hours to put conditioner! haha! den when going up th stairs to band room, peiyun realised jess hair gt worm! den we were like screaming & screaming & screaming! haha! back to band room, all calmed down! prepared, warm up. went down. rehearse a few times. den had dinner. den th ceremony start. two entertainment songs, fanfare, speeches, prize giving, sch song. end! den went back band room pack. den aft announcing results. bid farewell time! cried like mad! i really miss my mighty girls! i dont even know how to survive in th section without them! from now on, me, peiyun, adila, bryan & jocelyn will work very very hard! aft i left sch, i realised i forgot to bring my shoe bag out! left in band room eh! my slippers.. den went supper with may, junjie, singyee & yinhui at compass point mac. jess saw th present we gave her & cried eh! den i also cry. haha! eat eat eat. den precious came to send me home. den jiu went home. went home le cant sleep. decided to ton to do homework. end up mother scream here & there. 2plus went to sleep.

today! woke up early. met precious for breakfast. i woke up somehow quite late eh. den precious treat me breakfast. thanks!:D den he pei me take bus 161 to hougang green meet erika, nigel & gabriel. do tht intellect log on thing. at first, all was like so quiet. end up, took th video thing, damn funny! haha! left around 12plus. met precious. chat chat chat. den went compass point alone buy things. lrt-ed home! now chionging th intellect log on powerpoint eh!

I MISS MY MIGHTY!:D
CONGRATS PEIYUN! OUR SECTIONAL LEADER!
CONGRATS ADILA! OUR ASSISTANT WARDROBE!
CONGRATS LINLIN! BOTH OF US ARE CHEIF LIBRARIANS!
CONGRATS JUNJIE! ASSISTANT WOODWINDS QM!
CONGRATS ESTHER;BAND MAJOR, NATALIE;DRUM MAJOR, LAISIM;SECRETARY!
PEOPLE! LETS WORK HARD!:D

I LOVE ALL!:D

2008-03-15T21:15:00.002+08:00

end of th day!:D

artistic shot:D, tht person behind me. haha!

2008-03-15T20:39:00.002+08:00

HELLOS PEOPLE!:D
im so high now! spent a day with precious happily!
lets rewind to monday, 10march!

10march;
met up with precious at compass point. trained to dhoby ghaut, our destination was plaza singapura. reached! went to buy movie tickets for THE LEAP YEARS! precious treat me breakfast at mac:D thanks precious! walked around. precious played arcade. bought popcorn & went in. th movie haven even start, we alrdy started munching on th popcorns. haha! den the movie just started not long, we finished th popcorns. th movie was nice. i had th thought tht, will love really last tht long? aft th movie, trained to buangkok. chat with precious. den went home!

14march;
trained to bugis in th morning. met PEIYUN LOVER at bugis!:D she pei-ed me have my breakfast at kfc, it was 11plus then. den eat & chat until 12plus. we went to bugis street! we knew tht th shops 2plus den open, bt out of boredom, we still went to shop! haha! den shop shop shop! th first shop, i saw th clothe i want, den i pointed it to peiyun & it was th clothe she wanted to get too! telepathy eh! den we shopped shopped shopped. bought 3tops, 1leggings, 3pairs of earrings! i spent th whole afternoon telling peiyun to buy leggings to match her top. haha! she kept insisting on buying three quarts. finally, i managed to convince her! walked around. & there was this shop where i bought my leggings & one of the tops, we kept walking past & th uncle was like, 'hey girls, your going shop until wht time?' den i was like, 'shop until we happy? haha!' th uncle was friendly la! & we met jane & jianying by chance. haha. shop shop shop until 3plus. den we started to get hungry. so decided to lunch at yoshinoya! our legs almost broke! peiyun was so damn tired. she say she never shop like tht before! im so honoured to be her first friend to go shopping with her!:D aft lunch at yoshinoya, we walked around bugis junction & went back to bugis street & shop again! i saw 2 tops. i really love one of the tops! bt i didnt have enough money alrdy eh. so sad): i want tht top!! & i realised i didnt get any bottoms! next time! second round will come soon eh! me & peiyun alrdy yue hao le! hehes:D had a fun day eh! den i pei peiyun wait for bus awhile den i went off. cos rushing home. i really love this day! i love my mighty partner, chua pei yun!:D

today;
went to compass point posb to deposit money. den trained to tampines, bused to precious's sch to fetch precious. precious was slow! im like waiting & waiting! i didnt had breakfast & it was like 12plus then? i also fainted! den bused back to tampines. had pizza hut! actually wanted pastamania, bt was like so many ppl. den went to pizza hut. i was craving for pasta & spaghetti. den precious say he treat me! yay! hehes:D ordered th chicago spaghetti! yummy! saw a schmate working there. she took our order & when we saw each other, we were like 'eh?!' haha! i love th spaghetti! ordered chicago spaghetti, garlic bread & hawaiin pizza! precious's treat!:D thanks precious! he's always treating me. haha. i will treat him next time:D aft pizza hut meal, trained to orchard, went to wisma atria to send bro's phone for servicing. den trained to hougang. saw peijuan at dhoby ghaut station eh! haha! alighted at hougang, went to hougang mall. bought hair clip! tht was my purpose of going there. den walked around. precious pei me bus home! thanks precious for accompanying me for th day! lovelove:D

thts all!
pictures coming up!
:D

2008-03-10T21:10:00.002+08:00

watched the leap year.
a question tht i have been thinking abt aft watching the movie.

do love still exists if you can only meet him/her once every four years?

the movie abit kua zhang eh. so damn many years. but it was nice though. i thought tht this kind of love should exist eh.
TAKE CARE PEOPLE:D

2008-03-08T21:00:00.010+08:00

shermian alvin bernard alicia! DYNAMITE's INSTRUCTORS!

DYNAMITE 14! A for ATTITUDE!

the ATTITUDE ones!

royston ar, give attitude also so formal. haha!

ALICIA! beloved dynamite14 instructor!

ESTHER LIMMMMM!

SILIANG!

SHIMIN!

XUEHAN!

2008-03-08T19:59:00.002+08:00

HELLOS HELLOS!
PEOPLE! IM BACK ONCE AGAIN!:D
BACK FROM SEC3 ADVENTURE CAMP!
which lasted for 3 days 2 nights at PASIR RIS PARK.
my group was group 14;section D for DYNAMITE!
hehes! dynamite 14 is a damn attitude group lor.
attitude people form attitude group:D
but, i still love the attitude we gave!

5march;firstday
the first day was a WAITING DAY! go school, wait for 1hr3omin. reach pasir ris park, waited for dont know how long. wait & wait & wait! muddy fields. weird sleeping area. haha! all girls in one marquee? dont know if spelled like tht. but anw, first day, our instructor was LYDIAAAAA!:D but she left suddenly without saying goodbye! super sad la. but our next instructor was the one who gave us the idea of ATTITUDE! ALICIA! hehes! she rocks! first activity was THE CHALLENGE. have to find a few places den river crossing. tht was the part, which made us drop our jaw. you know, you will be clipped onto a rope & you have to cross from one side to the other side in tht polluted river i guess? once i stepped in, omg. soft mud. den when crossing, i was like going so fast? haha! i cross with esther ma, den she was like 'simin ar! you not crossing yourself leh. still got me, you go so fast for wht?' den i was like ' yahor. i also dont know leh. damn cold can!' den i slow down, the instructor at the other side was like 'hello girls!:D i know its very nice to be in there, but dont take too long eh.' we were like -.- haha! den aft tht river crossing, my shoes was never dry. & it caused 3BLISTERS! pain pain pain! den had rafting making aft lunch. the whole process, we were untying ropes. end le, we still untying, didnt officially start doing anything -.- the rainy weather caused alot activities unable to go on. but never mind eh! night walk was super scary! first nite, enqi told me i slept around 230? haha! at first not sleepy, once i lie down. boom! blank out!

6march;second day
rain rain! den didnt get to do low elements & high elements. but did team building. tht was fun can! especially the 5 in a group one! super fun! aft the game, boonyuen, jiajun, esther, royston & me was like still playing with it! haha! & tht WASHING MACHINE GAME! the guys go wash jose until he became dirty -.- den had beach cleaning all these. beach cleaning was boring! CAMPFIRE! at the multi purpose hall at coasta sands. air conditioned campfire! haha! at first i was like quite sad la. cos cant scream): but end up, i dont care, just scream like nobody's business. haha! & royston was like ATTITUDE LA! blablabla. keep on attitude attitude attitude. damn funny. super high:D aft campfire, sleeping timeeeee! know wht? i didnt sleep! not only tht alot ppl also. we tonned! haha! was talking to siliang & all these la. haha! my guardian angel eh? hehes! did some dangerous stuffs. ran out to buy mac. haha! actually planned not to sleep, end up, esther & eunice first to give up. den enqi, den me. haha! enqi & me didnt want to sleep at first. den she say try try. 5mins later call her wake if she sleep. den i was like okkays!:D den i stared at her sleep. haven even 1min, kelvin disturb her, den she was like.. OHMYGOD! i cant take it le. im going to sleep. den i jiu try sleeping also. sleep where? the bbq pits there. slept at 6plus. den go back marquee, slept for 15mins plus.

7march;last day
im so damn energetic with abt 30mins of sleep? den cleaned up all these. prize giving. den sign on shirts. BYEBYE!): super sad la! I MISS DYNAMITE 14! && OUR INSTRUCTORS!
bernard[section ic], alicia, alvin, shermian! i miss you guys! & most importantly, i miss the whole camp! if we are still there, i think we are still having 'DYNAMITE OI!' haha! & I MISS ATTITUDE!:D

through this camp, really got to know alot new friends! especially the ATTITUDE ones! i will always remember DYNAMITE & DYNAMITE 14;the ATTITUDE!

PS. SINGYEE! I LOVE YOU!
haha!:D

2008-02-16T22:26:00.002+08:00

HEYS HEYS PEOPLE!
im back! again.. haha!
MIA-ed quite long eh?
hmm, school is same. feel tht theres alittle of bond within our class? haha. thts wht i think la.
oh ya!
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! (:
new year eve;
went for school. study until a certain time, den watched the school's cny concert. its so not interesting. aft tht, went home. abt evening 5plus like tht, started steamboat with my family. had rounds & rounds until 9! seriously, OHMYGOD. but overall, NICE!
chu yi;
went grandmother's house bai nian! had breakfast cum lunch there. i love my grandmother's dishes! yum yum! aft tht, went to father's side great grandmother's house. stayed awhile, went off. den went another relative house, stayed awhile, went off. went aunt's house for dinner. super sian! den went home!
chu er;
stayed at home. early afternoon, my aunt came for steamboat. im seriously sick of steamboat. somemore this time one no nice! tasteless! aft tht, went to another aunt's house. dinner. sian! mother dont let me gamble): den jiu go stare into space. den went home!
chu san;
woke up early in the morning. forced to): den afternoon went to another great grandmother's house. den left. den went hougang mall for super early dinner. den went home!
chu si;
went to temple bai bai. queued for 3 whole hours standing! just to bai tai sui! kneel there for less than 1min & went off le! ohmygod la! den went compass point. had super early dinner again. den walked around. den went home!
next day onwards;
SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL! oh ya, the angel & mortal. im a super extremely irresponsible angel! haha! i never even give my mortal anything, only gave a note. & until now i never tell my mortal, 'heys! im your angel!' i jue de will be very weird lor. so decided, let nature take its course(: & im super weird! emath & amath tests, i did badly for emath & average for amath. combined chemistry & pure bio, i failed my chemistry test badly & passed my pure bio test with quite nice marks! weird right? its just the start la. haha! next time all fail le. i feel tht im slacking in my studies! but, CANNOT! but.. i just dont have the sense of motivation in me anymore? nothing to motivate me. fail or pass is nothing anymore. i tend to anyhow do in my tests. in fact, always. amath, i just copy blindly. chemistry, i just stare into space. physics, sometimes listen, sometimes fa dai. english, mind go off wandering. emath, sometimes listen. biology, totally never care. chinese, first lesson in this year i slept. lce, do other homework. pe, always hope to get injured so tht dont need pe. ss/history, stare into space. im mad i guess. people say, sec3 must be more hardworking or else next year will be a difficult year for me. yet, im here slacking. slack more than last year. once i dont know how to do homework, i wont do anything. next day go school copy. im seriously mad! i also dont know what happened to me? lost the motivation. lost everything. lost the mood to study. lost the mood the continue live on. hmm, CANNOT CANNOT! must be more happy!(:
&& I HAVE SOMETHING TO ANNOUNCE! (:
PEIYUN, my horn partner, & ME are friends for 7YEARS le!
so unbelievable la! i super love her! my dearest horn partner since.. primary school! thursday, we went back to our primary school. changed alot. gt the nostalgic feeling. den we were like quite disappointed. cos tht day no band for our primary school. we wanted to visit our primary school band. den went rivervale mall, like 2 little girls, sit at kfc there eat SWEETS! haha! den went on budget! go mac drink $1 coke. & did physics homework together! the time we spent together were like so fun! den gt LION DANCE!! i was mad over tht la. super funny. shall not elaborate(: or else peiyun will say im mad. but im mad(:
today;
had band in the morning until afternoon. den went out with my precious mighty section! wear nice nice! haha! den mr er drive us to central. had pasta de waraku! its SUPER NICE! jess's recommendation! haha! i had bacon & potato cream carbarona spaghetti. nice nice! all nice la! haha! although quite ex, but worth it! den went around shopping. had a fun time with mr er & mighty seniors! shop finish le, took mrt to sengkang den lrt-ed home!
realised something which made me broke down. seriously, BROKE DOWN.

specially for may & love;
thanks for being there when i broke down(: this is the first time i broke down so seriously infront of them. i guess they abit shock dao ba? but in anw, thanks alot mighty senior!! & love(: your really cheered me up(: from broke down so seriously to laughters!(:

specially for people who gave me notes & gifts on valentines day;
THANK YOU PEOPLE! jessica, your card really touched my heart. kimberly, your note really brought back those memories when we are searching like mad for scores! peiyun, your sweets really let me feel so SWEET! & many many more! thanks people!(: iloveyou!

specially for peiyun, may & jessica;
thanks my mighty partner & seniors! your are always there for me whenever im happy, sad or emo. always the ones cheering me up & brightening up my day! & those quite crazy times we had together! no matter what happens, i will always be here for you girls! (: iloveyougirls!

LAST OF ALL,
ILOVEYOUPEOPLE!

2008-01-13T11:32:00.000+08:00

HELLOS PEOPLE!
long time no post le! why? cause didnt pay my internet bill. now using at aunt's house. hmm, these few days are just.. school, lessons & homework! this is schooling life la. haha! i seriously find lessons boring in 3i! except for CHINESE!! haha! mrs tung is WOW! her lessons are always the MOST MOST MOST interesting ones! bad news ): i cant catch up with my math & amath! anyone can tutor me? && pure bio! && CHEMISTRY! the teacher is cannot make it one lor! physics is okok? but abit boring. school is just so boring when there are lessons la ): haha! okkays! shall stop here?
TAKE CARE PEOPLE!
LOVES! (:

are those drastic changes?
i hope for everything to be back.
changes are scary.
i hate it.
things aint the same anymore?
or am i thinking too much?
i hope its me thinking too much.

2007-12-10T14:25:00.001+08:00

10 december!
woke up around 9am. called baby. baby say i super early again. haha! chat chat chat. baby want go bathe, i dont let him. hohos. im bad (: end up, hang up. i went to bathe, baby went to bathe too. called baby. had breakfast. baby want me to hang up. jiu hang up lor. eat finish le den call back. chat chat chat. i went offline. was like sleepy & tired. but didnt want to sleep. jiu came online again. chat with baby! baby is super sweeeeeet la! (: i feel like vomitting. ohmygod la. feel so tired.

(:

2007-12-09T14:50:00.000+08:00

7 december!
woke up around 730? had somehow a nightmare.
i remembered, it was something like.. i broke up with baby. stead with another guy, but i dont like that guy at all & neither do the guy like me at all. end up, the guy did something [i forgot?], i got super angry & broke up with him. & that time, i still love baby so much. one day, me & baby were sitting at a beach there, then i asked baby for patch. is like super stupid. i didnt know why in the first place i broke up with baby. & end up, HAPPY ENDING! (: but i will never break up with baby!
once i woke up from the nightmare, i called baby. early in the morning! haha! baby say im crazy, early in the morning call. too early le ba. i was like.. scare dao ma ): den i was like crying? im crazy. haha! den woke up, washed up. went to buy my brother's books for next year. den went home, prepared. went out! took lrt to ranggung. met baby! baby made 爱心breakfast for me! hohos! den went to baby's house. watched shows. ratatouille. den i ate the breakfast. baby pian wo, tell me the cheese is expired one. i was like.. staring at him. haha! den watched the show. niceeeee! (: left baby's house around 130. we walked to compass point to meet peiyun! den took bus161 to hougang green there. meet may at sweet talk. went to long john silver to takeaway my lunch! den may went to another shop to takeaway her lunch. went to may's house. had lunch. den started doing some special things. watched shows again! baby's super sweeeeeet! (: den decided to eat out for dinner. packed up everything. went for dinner with peiyun & baby at hougang green one of the kopitiam there. the noodles was omg. tasteless! den after eating, took bus161 to compass point with baby. peiyun went took another bus home. den said byebye to baby at compass point ): home!

8 december!
woke up around 730. called baby. morning report. haha! den prepared. went out. walked to school. fall in. was sweating like siao. practiced. senior band went to have lunch. stayed back to combine for sec1s. den had lunch takeaway by other people. ate with peiyun. den combined in the hall. was so sleepy. & tired. fall in, fall out. home! went for aunt's wedding at her house. den after that, father brought us to geylang for dinner cum supper? haha! it wasnt nice at all. home!

9 december!
woke up around 10plus. called baby! chatted for about one & a half hour. den i went to bathe. called baby again, den had my breakfast cum lunch. den baby ask me go eat first. i super guai, i go eat first. den after that, called baby, talked on the phone for about two hours. baby sound so sleepy. & baby say i sound sleepy. den at first we say want talk until sleep. end up, baby say want give me free time. haha! so hang up. calling baby later! hohos! he's super sweeeeeet la! (: came online. talking to baby onlineeeee! we are like talking almost the whole day!

ohya! & i think i forgot to mention something! i got into 3i next year. how can i not be sad? but i think i will get over it soon. anyone in 3i next year? care to be friends?! haha! (:
不要把你们的快乐, 建筑在我的痛苦上.
天下无不散之宴席.
如果是再好不过的朋友, 我相信我们会是永远的朋友.
我希望如此.

(:

2007-12-06T09:49:00.000+08:00

2 december!
met ;3! lrt-ed to kangkar. den he suddenly appear. abit chua sai. haha! den went to look for my socks. cause having camp next day. den no socks. end up, the shoe shop closed down already! was like.. ohmygod! went to buy chocolate milk tea! im addicted to it! (: went around looking for socks. didnt bought any at the end. met xinni to pass her tickets. look for socks again. still cant find. give up! den decided to go home. byebye to ;3 at the lrt station there. super sad ): only can meet for awhile. home! packed for band camp. my bag is like going to explode? haha!

3 december!
FIRST DAY OF BAND CAMP!
woke up around 730. prepared. walked to school. fall in. practiced. lunch! lunch was nice! whole section eat together! its like very long never like that le. after lunch, went back for practice again. mr er wanted woodwinds to go out practice. den he took brasses. after that, mr er released brasses early for bathing! me & natalie toured around the whole school for bathrooms & we ended up going to the first floor one. haha! after bathing, dinner! whole section eat together again! after dinner, had bonding session for awhile. den went back for practice. around 9plus mr er let us go sleep. but end up, we went to watch the phantom of the opera at resource room. watched until 12plus. lights off around that time. couldnt get to sleep. den me, esther & natalie were like talking talking talking. end up natalie slept first. den peishan, yixuan & linlin come chat with us. gossip gossip! haha! den awhile later, they want us to sleep. so listened to music & slept around 220. finally!

4 december!
SECOND DAY OF BAND CAMP!
woke up around 7am. went to wash up. fall in. had breathing exercise. den woodwinds started breakfast earlier. breakfast was quite nice. bread with those jam, kaya, peanut butter, blablabla. den milo. after breakfast, started practice. lunch! lunch was nice! after that, went hall for combine. combine awhile, brasses went for sectional. sectional awhile, quite tired. den started to chat. den bathing time! yay! went to look for bathrooms around the school with peiyun & fion. end up, went to hall backstage, fion stayed there to wait. me & peiyun went to the first floor again. 3 empty cubicles! haha! after bathing, dinner! after dinner, bonding session! haha! den went for combine again! after combine, went back to band room. den mr er talk to us. released around 11plus. had water parade. drink until going to vomit. about one & a half bottle! ohmygod. den after that, had our own time. kept running to toilet! haha! den 1am lights off. couldnt get to sleep at first. listened to music. slept! super tired!

5 december!
LAST DAY OF BAND CAMP!
woke up around 755. went to wash up. rushed to fall in. 5 morning rounds. water parade! almost vomitted. was like going to faint le. breakfast! brasses started breakfast first. den practice. was having stomache the whole day. super pain! ): den mr er released us at 12plus for lunch. after lunch was games. my group members, bennett[leader], jeanette, xiaohui, amanda, sihui, kianhong, qirui, sean. first game, entangled? next, scavenger hunt. need to find cockroach blablabla. super disgusting. after that, rest awhile, started treasure hunt. treasure hunt was fun! bennett kept running so fast. was like sweating. den we were the first group to finish! (: after treasure hunt, had a blindfold game, den group leaders had to go release locks from mr er. den after that, dinner! eat with whole section. after dinner, went to take our things & fall in. den had prize presentation. third, fion's group. second, our group. first, singyee's group. den after that, went home. home! called ;3. chat ahwhile. den sleep.

6 december!
woke up around 8plus. came online. ;3 called. he want me to have breakfast first. but i dont want. (:

(:

2007-12-01T19:21:00.000+08:00

30 november!
afternoon, peiyun came my house. did some things special. den may super late den reach. done with the thing. went bus stop near school to wait for jessica. took bus27 to tampines mall. was stucked at the shop for about one & a half hour plus? super hungry! after that, went to eat. den bought bubble tea. den peiyun went to take other bus home. me, may & jessica took bus27. super squeezy can! the bus already cant fill any people le. we were like stucked infront at the bus door there. den people keep squeezing in when theres no space at all. finally reached my stop! alighted! walked home. home! (:

1 december!
woke up around 745. prepared. walked to school. fall in. hornists had lesson with dingxiang! lunch! had cup noodles. combined. fall in, fall out. went home. home! (:

(:

2007-11-30T10:01:00.000+08:00

29 november!
woke up around 745. prepared. walked to school. went econ help natalie buy water. walked to school. fall in. breathing exercise. combined. dingxiang teach. was like super restless? lunch! esther want to photocopy scores. so went to rivervale mall for lunch. had kfc. walked back to school. many people late. combined. mr neo teach. fall in, fall out. decided to do something special with hornists! so took bus27 to may's house. before that, went hougang green & bought bubble tea! long time no drink. haha. den walked to may's house. may went into her house to keep her dog while me, peiyun & jessica stand at the refuse chute there talk. hmm, i can really say i respect my mighty seniors alot! haha! den went into may's house. jessica was like using msn. den may cant find her cd. den me & peiyun sit there talk talk talk. talked alot with hornists. i love my section! hohos! finally found her cd & install. end up, no code. den jiu talk talk talk until 855 like that. left her house. ohya! hornists adopted a winnie the pooh bear! i named it baby! haha! & i was like talking to it all the way. den they say i zi high. haha! super funny la. den may & jessica brought us to take bus88. bus-ed to compass point opposite. den lrt-ed home. peiyun change bus. den jiu rush home. home! (:

30 november!
woke up around 930plus. came online. played with photoshop. im waiting for may & peiyun to wake up la. so long. i think im early. haha! but the two of them are still sleeping. waiting for what? dont tell you! hohos! super bored now! baby's not online. so damn bored now.

(:

i have another 'baby'! (:
baby, iloveyou.

2007-11-28T11:11:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINNI & DARRYL ; my baby brother! (:
26 november!
went for band concert. met esther, natalie, jessica, kimberly & shuxian at compass point mcdonalds. had early dinner. after that , esther 's father came to drive us to cjc for the concert. thanks ! (: reached. almost vomitted. car sick! total five bands performing. admiralty secondary, assumption english, combined shuqun & zhenghua, orchid park secondary. overall , it was a nice concert! after concert, took bus 156 with esther. natalie took another bus. at first me & esther were listening to songs. den when a guy board the bus & sit infront of us. we were like omg. he was talking on the phone so loudly, as if the bus is he own one. after he alighted, esther jiu tell me she heard what he said. was like.. just like that, need talk so loud one meh? haha! finally reached sengkang interchange. took lrt. esther pei me take my route. thanks ! (: super late le. faster rush home. home! (:

27 november!
woke up around 745. prepared. went out. brought horn. super heavy. meet natalie at lrt. den jesselyn was there too. jiu walked to school. fall in. combined with sec1. was like.. super boring! den i was like yan jiu-ing a sec1 girl's hair. mr lee thought what im seeing. den he xia dao. he thought got something behind him. haha! finally, lunch! the room was super cold can! lunched with esther, natalie & enqi! at carpark. cup noodles. oops! haha. after eating, went back school. enqi went home i think? went to back to band room. i was like sit there, staring into space. suddenly no mood to do anything. ): den combined. was like.. tired! ): combined last song. i didnt even have the energy to play louder. ohmygod la. den packed up. kimberly was like want to write on the whiteboard an announcement. den she let me write. cause im short, she see me like write until so xin ku, so she took over. end up, write until pekchek! erased everything! rushed down to fall in. give out scores. made announcement. fall out. home! (: i got merit bursary award! but my fas application didnt pass. ):

HAPPY THIRD MONTH TO SEEN! (:
28 november!
broke down yesterday night. ): now eyes super swollen. jian bu de ren la! ohmygod. woke up around 10plus. was like blurblur . dont know what to do. feel so giddy. came online. super boring! i wonder what im going to do for the rest of the day. just now went to hand in bursary form at blk 193 rc. den went to rivervale mall photocopy scores. home! (:

(:

HAPPY FOURTH MONTH ANNIVERSARY! (:
i loveeeee you!

2007-11-25T15:49:00.000+08:00

25 november !
woke up around 10plus . prepared . went out with mother . meet grandmother at hougang mall ! so long never go out with grandmother le . had breakfast cum lunch at foodcourt . walked around . went to buy some things . bought new shoes ! yay ! happy happy ! went to delifrance . drink & chat . took mrt . home ! (:

(:

things seem to be getting worser ?
i saw friendster .
i feel like giving up , backing out .
you told me how important the bond between us was ,
but now , it doesnt seem so anymore .
if i didnt ask you about it , will you ask me to go ?
i doubt so ?
all of you know about it , except me .
isnt it obvious ?
the bond between us is very important to me .
you told me before too . but now ?
i guess its nothing to you le ba .
i dont know , why is this always happening to me .
in the past too . now .
i hope i can just disappear right now , or maybe die .
at least i dont need to face so many things .
what you told me , i believed .
our friendship will never be broken .
not even quarrels can break it .
they are your real true friends i guess .
im just someone who walked past you .
well , im fated to have no friends i guess .
i cannot change fate .
i just have to face it .

2007-11-24T19:19:00.000+08:00

24 november !
woke up around 730 . prepared . went off . meet natalie darling at lrt . walked to school . fall in . dingxiang came to teach . lunch ! mr er came , combined . fall in , fall out . brought horn home ! super heavy . when i reach home , both hands red like .. dont know what . must practice ! haha ! home ! (:

(:

2007-11-23T14:14:00.000+08:00

23 november !
woke up around 8plus . came online . watched brown sugar macchiato ! had breakfast . so called , breakfast . watch watch watch . & I FINALLY FINISH WATCHING ! super nice ending ! brown sugar macchiato ! haha ! wang zi & guigui super compatible la ! wang zi ! wang zi ! wang zi ! hohos ! && aoquan ! haha ! im crazy over this show le . happy ending ! hope got part 2 ? really a niceeeee show ! bang bang tang is loveeeee ! thanks to natalie , for recommending me watch this show ! haha ! & now im like , super bored ): nothing to do . i want a big big winnie the pooh ! (:

(:

2007-11-22T20:14:00.000+08:00

im boreddddd ! ):
im craving for a SHOPPING SPREE !
& a big big winnie the pooh soft toy or bear bear or tortoise !
im crazy la .
i just want a big big soft toy !
&& necklaces !
i just found out i dont have any necklaces at all .
hope these few things can just pop out infront of me & surprise me ?
haha ! super impossible though .
im hoping to shop for many things la !
pleaseeeee drop money from the sky ! (:

(:

& im missing you ):
a long way to go .
i wonder how can i live on the days without you ?

2007-11-22T19:21:00.000+08:00

22 november !
woke up around 730 . prepared . meet natalie darling at lrt . went econ buy water . walked to school . fall in . dingxiang took brasses . lunch ! combined . fall in , fall out . was designing something special ! but in the end , failed ): went off with natalie to econ . bought ice cream . im craving for something to eat la . haha ! natalie bought chips . saw band friends at void deck . chat awhile . went off . home ! (:

(:

2007-11-21T16:24:00.000+08:00

21 november !
woke up around 9plus . super bored ! came online . watched brown sugar macchiato ! now still watching . wang zi is loveeeeed ! & ao quan too ! both are super shuai & super cute la ! brown sugar macchiato is a MUST WATCH ! (: haha ! whole day im like staring into the screen watching the show . downloaded maple , played less than half an hour & i uninstalled it . im crazy . not fun la . dont want to waste laptop memory space ? haha ! den continued watching brown sugar macchiato . from 10plus until 4plus , im like chatting with ;3 . he say going to sleep le . from 10plus until 4plus , STILL HAVEN SLEEP ! i dont know say how many GO SLEEP LA ! SLEEEEEEP ! blablabla . finally , now go & sleep le . crazy one lor . tired & dont want to sleep . actually wanted to meet natalie darling for lunch after she break camp . but she couldnt make it ): so stayed at home & watched brown sugar macchiato instead . i today so guai lor . never go out , never this , never that . whole day stay at home stare into space . & im left with 4 more jian bao ! dont have the mood to do la . why holiday must give homework ?! somemore jian bao doesnt seem to help in our studies . got la , read more news .. what a good way of studying ! && im left with 3 more stall tickets ! anyoneeeee ? im still waiting for shannenAIREN , xinni & some people 's response ! sms -ed xinni tons of sms , but she didnt reply at all . ohmygod ! im hoping for a shopping spree , outing with friends & chalets ! but , none of it seemed to be possible for me ): forget it ! i wonder what is my honourable friend busy nowadays ? like very long never talk to this honourable friend le . & i want to work ! part time or whatever . its like .. give up ! ):

(:

2007-11-20T18:46:00.000+08:00

20 november !
woke up around 745 . prepared . went off . saw esther at lrt . jiu gave her not really surprise . haha ! den walked to school . natalie 's having councillor camp . fall in . band ! dingxiang teach brasses , woodwinds sectional . lunch ! im like starving ): dingxiang teach awhile . mr er came . combined . fall in , fall out . pei esther go rivervale mall buy things . home ! (:

(:

2007-11-19T15:03:00.000+08:00

& a test for us .
as long as two years .
love will prove everything .
promises wont be broken .
mine wont (:
if love really exists ,
theres nothing difficult .

2007-11-19T14:28:00.000+08:00

an unwilling decision .
an unwanted call .
a word , a sentence .
everything ended .
unlimited tears ,
unwilling decision .
no more .
i really hate to do so .
i still love you so .
i really do .

2007-11-18T13:44:00.001+08:00

16 november !
went for nco passing out parade . very nice la ! was like .. wow ! haha . den went home .

17 november !
band ! 5 morning rounds . hornists had sectional with mr er . lunch ! went back combined . fall in , fall out . home !

18 november !
super boring . im in no mood to say anything right now ): emo .

(:

2007-11-15T17:49:00.000+08:00

14 november !
woke up around 845 . prepared . went out . raining ! so walked in the rain . walked to rumbia lrt . reached compass point . meet ;3 ! its like long long time never meet le ? officially i mean . den was like waiting for ;3 's friend . he want pass her something . den pass le . bought breakfast . den saw esther , natalie , enqi , kelvin , boonyuen , jingcong & jiajun . went to say hello ! haha ! den jiu went off . den went home around 6plus . home ! (:

15 november !
woke up around 745 . prepared . went to meet natalie at lrt . walked to school . fall in . breathing exercise ! stomach pain ): band ! mr er teach brasses . lunch ! went back . combined . fall in , fall out . home ! (:

(:

2007-11-13T18:26:00.000+08:00

13 november !
woke up around 730 . prepared . my hair , messy ! natalie 's time sense problem happened again . she was super early ! haha . so just nice , i just tied my hair & she called ! so meet her at lrt . walked to school . fall in . breathing exercise . i was helping adila . suddenly mr er ask me go kneel on alidia 's stomach . i was like .. huh ?! she so small can ? den i dont dare dont dare . i kneel once den mr er walked off . den i use hands to push . den alidia help me push . band ! sectional ! peiyun & me at fourth floor stairs , jessica & may at third floor stairs . dont know how they run . one of them the stand at second floor . haha . den arthur suddenly appear , i thought what happen . den he say we very loud . is seniors teach one . must loud loud ! haha ! combined ! lunch ! combined again . was like staring into space . fall in , fall out . home ! came online . im so bored now ! ):

(:

2007-11-12T14:10:00.001+08:00

12 november !
woke up around 930 . all thanks to the construction works ! EARLY IN THE MORNING 8 plus or 9plus start work . so damn noisy ! cant even get to sleep can ! ): came online . chat chat chat . fortunately , i still have tears (: i thought my tears all dried up le . haha . damn bored . decided to watch 黑糖瑪奇朵 . natalie recommend me to watch . just finish watching first episode ! nice nice nice ! damn funny la ! & 王子 super shuai ! haha . i want to watch through vcd or dvd ! anyone haveeeee ? today is a boring day . everyday of holiday is a boring day ! ):

(:

2007-11-11T19:28:00.000+08:00

11 november !
woke up around 1030 . prepared . went out . super regret wear the new shoes ! super super regret ! ): now my both feet got 7 injuries ! ohmygod . was like screaming pain the whole day . mrt -ed to hougang & meet mighty hornists ; fion , jessica , may & peiyun . den mrt -ed to city hall . went to the esplanade library . wow ! so many scores . went marina square food court to have lunch . den rush back to esplanade . we were quite late . reached around 230 . went into concert hall . saw esther & natalie ! haha . band concert by west winds . dingxiang performing too . all movie songs . horn is like wow , ohmygod ! haha ! nice nice ! after concert , went to toilet . den say byebye to hornists . den i went to meet esther & natalie . mrt -ed to dhoby ghaut . they actually wanted to go find jocelyn i think . den they see i walk until so pain jiu say go compass point . thanks ! (: reached compass point . first thing ! buy drink ! so damn thirsty . walked around . den chat chat chat . lrt -ed home . home !

(:

2007-11-10T19:39:00.000+08:00

10 november !
woke up around 7am . im glad i woke up that early ! spent half an hour to tie my hair ! ohmygod ! but end up , still so messy . & natalie darling ! she count wrong timing again . these few days , her time sense balance like abit problem . haha . so last minute meet her at lrt . den walked to school . went to hand in fas form . fall in . the breathing exercise was .. i dont know what to say . natalie still can do halfway kill ants . den jingwen 's reaction was so funny . den i jiu keep laughing . band ! warm up . den sectional awhile . dingxiang came & teach . den jessica joined . lunch ! im eat until damn slow . den esther , natalie & shuxian keep staring at me . end up , too full , dont want eat le . haha . walked back school . combined . fall in , fall out . home ! watched tv . blablabla . & im so bored now ! ):

(:

2007-11-09T10:30:00.000+08:00

i was at my another aunt 's house , playing with her daughter 's whiteboard .

boreddddd ! ):

loves !

me (:

LOVE .

im happy , im sad :):

i love smiles , laughs & loves !

what i wore to eldrick 's full month .

2007-11-09T10:16:00.000+08:00

8 november !
boringgggg ! ): went to my aunt house for eldrick 's full month . i just went in , my relatives gave exaggerating comments . one say : wa ! simin can get married liao leh ! one say : simin poly liao ar ? & much more , i forgot le . i was like .. -.- got so kua zhang meh . ohmygod . just because of what i wear can . hohos . went to see eldrick . so sad la . he 's sleeping . den i jiu use uncle 's laptop . or not jiu sit in one room think things . is like .. sian ! ): den about 9plus , went to another aunt 's house . go visit my another aunt . my another baby cousin also . haha . next week going to full month le ba . that another baby cousin is like so tiny can . eldrick much more chubby ! haha ! many loves to my baby cousins ! den 10plus reach home . went to cheers with my mother . my mother bought bread . den jiu went home . home ! (:

9 november !
boring day again ! i keep on wake up & sleep & wake up & sleep ! den finally wake up . came online . i dont feel like eating the instant noodles infront of me la . haven even finish half a bowl & it was already infront of me for half to one hour ? & i haven take my medicine ! im forgetting this & that & this & that can . boring day ! ):

(:

i cant get to sleep every night .
always turn here & there for one to two hours .
i need sleeping pills i guess .

2007-11-08T16:50:00.000+08:00

世界唯一的你
曹格

是你
一眼我就认出来
这是命运最美丽的安排
是爱
让你略过漫长等待
我们只要现在相爱
幸福就来

恨我来不及参与你的过去
抱歉让你等待
我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半

这个世界唯一的你
是我拥有的奇迹
对我说的一字一句
都是我们的秘密
紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就算世界与我为敌
我也愿意我什么都愿意

看开
过去所有的悲哀
都只是训练我为你勇敢
真爱
照亮了漆黑的夜晚
寻找了彼此一辈子
才不分开

恨我来不及参与你的过去
抱歉让你等待
我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半

i will climb the highest mountain
i will swim the deepest sea
对我说的一字一句
都是我们的秘密
紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就算世界与我为敌
我也愿意我什么都愿意

爱就象一种解不开的魔咒
与你再次解脱
我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半

i will climb the highest mountain
i will swim the deepest sea
就算要我上天下地
我什么都愿意为你
紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就算世界与我为敌
我也愿意我什么都愿意

2007-11-08T11:46:00.000+08:00

8 november !
helppppp ! im so bored now . later have to go my father 's teacher 's house ? because of deepavali & his teacher is an indian or dont know what . i hate it la . always force me go places which i dont like . somemore my mother dont even know how to eat indian food , i also dont know . go there for the sake of going . i rather rot at home ): im hoping for evening ! going aunt 's house . my baby cousin ; eldrick 's full month ! he 's cuteeeee ! haha ! many loves to him !

(:

2007-11-07T17:35:00.000+08:00

7 november !
woke up quite early . came online ! so damn excited ! cause going out . haha ! den prepared . mrt -ed to hougang & meet NATALIE DARLING at hougang mall ; mcdonalds . went to wait for taxi at taxi stand . wait so long , no taxi . went another side . wait so long , NO TAXI ! den finally got one taxi driver ask us want go where . den yay ! hohos . cabbed to jalan kelulut ? near yio chu kang . den natalie went for her hair cut . i was like sitting beside her , staring at her ! haha ! after her haircut , bus -ed to serangoon station & mrt -ed to sengkang . went okinawa ! had my haircut ! meet ;3 ! finally ! (: the person go cut my fringe short short ! & now my hair is like jump jump ? haha ! but i love my new haircut ! (: yay ! after that , lunch -ed at yoshinoya . natalie ask deying come down find us , end up he stand outside yoshinoya say hello & went off ! i was like .. i never even saw him . haha ! den after eating , chiong -ed up to interchange & said byebye to him . he was on the bus already ! haha ! went montip & decided not to buy anything . natalie went home . ;3 pei me walk to traffic light there den he walked home himself , i walked home myself . home ! watching tv . tried to tie up my hair . DISASTROUS ! here drop there drop ! here jump there jump ! gave up ! den came online !

(:

I LOVE MY HAIRCUT !

2007-11-06T19:17:00.000+08:00

6 november !
woke up around 745 . prepared . i looked out of the window , hmm , looks like going to rain . the next minute , big heavy rain ! i was like .. ohmygod ! den before i step out of house , NO UMBRELLA ! den just dont care . chiong rain ! totally drenched ! & so cold can ! my shoes are like wet for the whole day . in band room , damn cold . first half of the day , sec1s time . second half , sectional ! for awhile , me & natalie was like talking to each other from one end to the other end using mouth language . seriously , i dont understand what natalie 's talking ! haha . after sectional , combined awhile . fall in , fall out . home ! today is a cold cold day !

(:

to one special person ! (:
或许老天就是在考验你
但不要为了一个人放弃你的快乐
你要加油要更坚强 !
证明给大家看
你是一个坚强的人 !

2007-11-05T15:59:00.001+08:00

suddenly remembered something .

JUNKAI ar ! you can go for the band concert ma ?
i dont know how to contact you leh -.-
pleaseeeee contact me if you can go (:

those people who told me consider first .
can you all go ? all like no response -.-

&& im dying soon .
staying at home is so boringgggg .
almost watched finish one anime ,
closed down the window ,
cause it was a re -watch .

everyone is like so busy .
i want to be so busy la ):
im left with about , 5 more 剪报 .
already cut out article ,
just that no inspiration to write anything ):

i found out that , there are alot of people emo -ing nowadays .
how come ar ?
especially today .

(:

i cant get back to the past simin .
i seriously cant .
why is it so ?
im no longer smiling like then .

2007-11-05T12:40:00.000+08:00

苦茶
(棒棒堂&黑澀會美眉)

(棒棒堂)
微微笑的看你越是認真就越讓人心疼
街頭那盞路燈彷彿在笑我愚笨
沒什麼能做但我比誰都真誠
泡一杯苦茶陪伴你到深夜

妳知不知道你總有一種很可愛的獨特
讓我充滿勇氣抵抗冬天的寒冷

怎樣做才會完美像個男人
喝一杯苦茶溫暖你的體溫

(黑澀會美眉+棒棒堂)
不用等你開口先說我愛你
在那之前想對你說我願意
你不必問你也不必等
這一刻就值得愛到永恆

我該如何讓你明白我愛你
在那之後你點頭說我願意
想照顧你想守護你
這一刻只想把你抱緊

(黑澀會美眉)
你知不知道你也有一種很可愛的天真
大男孩的口吻魅力加到一百分

(棒棒堂)
怎樣做才會完美像個男人
喝一杯苦茶溫暖你的體溫

(黑澀會美眉+棒棒堂)
不用等你開口先說我愛你
在那之前想對你說我願意
你不必問你也不必等
這一刻就值得愛到永恆

我該如何讓你明白我愛你
在那之後你點頭說我願意
想照顧你想守護你
這一刻只想把你抱緊

(黑澀會美眉)
雖然永遠太不可能
少了你的完整
兩個對的人奇蹟就能發生

(黑澀會美眉+棒棒堂)
不用等你開口先說我愛你
在那之前想對你說我願意
你不必問你也不必等
這一刻就值得愛到永恆

我該如何讓你明白我愛你
在那之後你點頭說我願意
想照顧你想守護你
這一刻只想把你抱緊

(黑澀會美眉)
這一刻只想把你
抱緊

2007-11-05T12:21:00.000+08:00

hello peopleeeee !
im so bored now .
i think i wont be MIA -ing le ba ?
hope so !

i told my mother im not going out today & will be staying at home . & its really boringgggg ): i want another SHOPPING CRAZE ! from morning till now , was chatting with honourable friend on msn . talking about some 心事 . im stubborn la . i need time to accept & adapt to everything which happened . anyway , thanks honourable friend ! (: about the chalet , see first ba . no friends go le also not fun & not happy . although got one la , but this friend is very busy one . haha .

(:

100th ! iloveyou !

2007-11-04T12:37:00.000+08:00

我已做出了选择
我希望我的选择不会是错的
我不要后悔
后悔会让我更痛苦
每天哭泣只能发泄我的伤心
但如今我已哭干了眼泪
我不懂我是否是在放弃的边缘
但我已选择了坚持
我应该不会放弃吧

思敏
你要坚强 (:

2007-11-04T11:40:00.000+08:00

4 november !

IM BACK AGAIN ! (:
hohos .
dont know whether will MIA again .
hope wont ba ?

updates on the past few weeks !
let me think if i can remember (:

2 november ; friday !
woke up around 845 . prepared . & went out ! (: lrt -ed to sengkang . mrt -ed to hougang & meet my PRECIOUS NATALIE DARLING ! hohos . mrt -ed to dhoby ghaut . plaza singapura ! had breakfast at long john silver ! we were like so damn high . den after that , mrt -ed to bugis ! bugis street ! (: shopped quite long . natalie bought one bag , one top , two bottom , one pair of shoes . i bought one top & 3 pair of earrings ! hohos . i have been aiming for that top from the moment we stepped into bugis street . natalie keep asking me to buy & i was like dont dare dont dare . haha . end up , I BOUGHT IT ! (: so damn happy ! next time go , i MUST bring more money !! spotted so many nice nice clothes , but didnt have enough money ): contented day ! after that , we went to bugis junction ; yoshinoya ! had lunch . they have the holiday student meal den got one ice cream donut . i think they gave wrong name for that donut lor . 'CREAM DONUT' would be more suitable . & natalie so funny . she eat the whole donut le , den i just started eating . i jiu say why taste like cream one . den she say , its cream ! after that i jiu say , dont eat better , sca ly really is cream . den we started on our meal . chat chat chat . eat eat eat . before we left , i see the donut which i never eat finish , haven melt yet . natalie jiu say , if ice cream , zao jiu melt le . den i look at her . we were like OHMYGOD . fattening leh . den natalie was like waaaaaa ! so damn funny la . yoshinoya thinks that cream is ice cream . what a funny fast food restaurant . den we went back to bugis street again ! hohos . walk walk walk . natalie bought things . den i jiu see see . den got this shop selling MISS LITTLE tees . i jiu saw MISS LITTLE STUBBORN . den natalie also saw . she jiu say , EH SIMIN ! SUITS YOU LEH ! BUY BUY ! i was like .. DONT WANT LEH ! haha . den walk pass again , the tee still there . den walk past again , no more le . natalie jiu die die want find the tee , & she found it in between the other tees . den walk past another shop , AGAIN got that tee . natalie say it is meant for me ! i was like .. -.- haha . den natalie father come fetch us go home . thanks ! (: den reached home . was so happy la ! happy happy day ! (:

3 november ; saturday !
had math lesson from 830 to 1200 . so sian la . but surprisingly , i paid attention ! haha . after lesson , went for band . when i was at lesson , they had sectional . i haven even practice ! den after lunch , went back to practice . haiyeeeee . dont want to mention le . thanks PRECIOUS ESTHER & NATALIE DARLING for cheering me up ! (: & PEIYUN too ! after band , went home . was listening to songs at home . EMO -ed . dont know why . my mind keep wandering off . thanks WANJING PIAOLIANG JIEJIE for all encouragements ! (: hohos . & of course NATALIE DARLING ! (: after that , listened to radio on phone . listen until sleep . den 123oam woke up . fm 933 was talking about ghost stories , i listen le so scary . quickly off the radio . scary la . haha . den sleep ! (:

my holidays are packed , with band practices . haha ! & my holiday is boring ! ): anyone out there to save me from boredom ?

i realised , i changed alot .
i wonder why .
i have been thinking so much .
i think im crazy .
probably need to visit a 心理医生 ?
SIMIN !!
please come backkkkk !

(:

2007-10-27T18:58:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OCTOBER BABIES ! (:

7 october ; mitchell (:
11 october ; singyee (: & miss wee heng fang (:
13 october ; mr tan teck nam (:
16 october ; xinyi (:
18 october ; junjie (:
21 october ; jesselyn (:
25 october ; su san (:
27 october ; peishan (:
28 october ; simin (:
31 october ; ailing (:

(:

2007-10-27T18:58:00.000+08:00

hello people ! (:

SINFONIETTA IV
compassvale military band
victoria concert hall
15 december 2007
730pm
stall seat : $10
circle seat : $15

anyone interested ?
if so , contact me through sms ! (:

2007-10-27T14:56:00.000+08:00

或许放弃会更好
我很怕失去但我也很怕拥有
我已经不再渴望他的爱
只要他开心我就满足了
我只怕坚持下去只会造成更大的伤害
我怕的是
有一天如果我们都对彼此已经没有了感情对各方的伤害都是还不了的代价
或许现在放弃时间能让我们忘记彼此
让时间把我们的爱冲淡
老实说我已经对这段爱情失去了一定的信心
我不敢面对能算说是进退维谷
因为我怎样他都会被伤害到
我不忍心看到他为我伤心和流泪
我认为他能找到比我更好的人
或许到时他不曾后悔与我分手
就因为我们两个相爱造成他的不快乐
但我也不好受
初恋总是最难忘记的回忆
虽然他说我就像是他的初恋但我宁可我自己痛苦也不想要他痛苦
我觉得他一定能把我忘掉但我不一定
所以我宁可默默地爱着他也不要让他知道我爱他
我似乎有点想念单身时的快乐与轻松
如果当初我没有接受他或许我们能成为非常要好的朋友

爱是痛苦但幸福的 (:
不在乎天长地久只在乎曾经拥有

2007-10-27T00:55:00.000+08:00

27 october !

IM FINALLY BACK ! (:

alot of things happened .
i dont want to mention it .
might mia again .
probably , soon ?

can someone please help me ? ):
im seriously , sad .

cried out all my tears .
& im lost .

(:

iloveyou .

2007-10-02T20:59:00.000+08:00

2 october ! today !
woke up . prepared . walked to school . assembly . was chatting with esther throughout . geography ! slept throughout ! starting of the lesson , head down . end of the lesson , teacher walked out , woke up for 3seconds & slept back . lang arts ! stand up to greet . slept throughout again ! was so damn tired ! sleep sleep sleep . i slept at 11plus yesterday , shouldnt be so tired one ma ! i think im suffering from some uncurable disease -.- haha . someone sms -ed me , damn funny la . i was sleeping , den that person thought i stomach pain . recess ! lce ! exams exams exams . can we dont have exams at all ?! science ! continued from where we stopped . slept for awhile , mdm jamaliah hand somehow banged on my table . i chua sai ! den woke up . den dont dare sleep . eyes was open , mind was sleeping ! haha . chinese ! staring into space . dismissed ! lunch with esther enqi & jasmine ! (: den after that , studyyyyy . den .. home ! (:

(:

im just stubborn , sorry . ):
time is what i need , i guess ?

2007-10-01T17:46:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHILDREN DAY ! (:

1 october ! today !
;3 called me early in the morning ! i was like .. its so damn early . haha . never mind . went back sleep . woken up by alarm at 7am ! prepared . after that , sleep awhile . den went off . walked to school . on the way , saw esther & enqi ! (: walked to school together . went to locker get stuffs . natalie came . den on the way walking to canteen , saw kewei . den jiu went back class with her . was like chatting once we get into the class ? haha . chat chat chat . den mdm jamaliah came in . everyone diam diam . realistic class ? haha . den mdm jamaliah talked to us about examination adminstrative stuffs . was like .. my head was dropping & dropping & i kept forcing myself to stay awake . end up , sleep awhile , wake , sleep awhile , wake . FINALLY ! next lesson . history ! people sabo here sabo there . end up , i just wanted to ask brenda something , kewei jiu say .. eh ! haven sabo simin hor ?! i was like .. what the hell ?! i didnt even do the worksheet at all ! den jiu faster do the next question ! den liza tell me , i think you better do the question , the next one will be you . i was like .. i know i know ! thats why im chiong -ing now . thanks LIZA for helping me on that question ! (: went up to type lor . was like .. ohmygod ! haha . recess ! S.E.E.N exchange presents ! only esther brought the present down from class ! haha ! den after recess , esther & enqi pei me go class take present . they 've got my loveeeee ! many many loves ! hohos ! den i was like .. reading something . den i heard someone whispering my name ! so eerie ! end up , it was natalie ! xia si wo . she came to gave me her present ! its real nice nice nice ! esther 's one too ! math ! mock exam paper 1 ! do until want to sleep ! ): lang arts ! miss yeow was like talking to us on macbeth . kewei was drawing . den i drawed to her something ! haha ! WITH LOVE - by kewei (: hohos ! is i draw one la . den i show her . den miss yeow jiu say , what are you doing ? i was like .. diam diam . am chio . haha . den miss yeow asked me , cant you just sit properly & normally ? i was like .. very normal le ma ! this is my normal way of sitting (: den she gave me a very funny reaction . den miss yeow ask liza , athira & azimah to go our classroom to take english files & stuffs down . was like , not enought people ma . den i jiu say , MISS YEOW ! got 40 people files you know ?! den she start to choose one more person to go . den i tio . i was like .. i dont want ! haha . went up to take the files . my leg was trembling , files almost slipped of my hands . chinese ! totally fa dai -ing ! till the end of lesson . dismissed ! lunch with esther natalie & enqi ! den natalie & enqi went for asp . esther & me went locker den lrt -ed to compass point . went to popular . saw WANJINGpiaoliangjiejie & her friend ! den her friend went to meet friend . den wanjing joined us . she treat us SWENSENS ! (: natalie & enqi joined us later . wanjing had omelette . esther & me shared fondue . natalie & enqi too . FONDUE IS NICEEEEE ! (: thanks WANJINGpiaoliangjiejie ! (: walked around after that . natalie went home first . den pei -ed wanjing go find her heels . den they pei -ed me wait for bus 86 . end up wait too long , they went off first . took bus 86 home ! den .. home ! (: studying later ! will be coming to blog lesser ! must concentrate on examsssss ! (:

(:

thanks S.E.E.N for first month & children day present ! (: loveeeees !
thanks WANJINGpiaoliangjiejie for SWENSENS treat ! (: you are loved !

2007-09-30T16:42:00.000+08:00

30 september ! today !
woken up by mother . so bad lor . force me wake up . came online awhile . got people come our house , supposingly to vaccum our beds , cause my mother signed up a dont know what thing . who know , they are here to introduce us RAINBOW products . $3000 + . siao ? & i was forced to wake up because of this also . end up , my mother rejected ! wa ! was like .. den so early call me wake up ! forget it . went rivervale mall ; foodcourt for breakfast cum lunch . den mother & maid went for haircut . den went home . came online . den mother wanted to use , jiu let her use lor . den went to study . study study study . came online again . searching for an anime ; laputa . its nice ! asked weiqing if she knew any websites for animes . den finally found the anime through a website she recommend ! thanks WEIQING ! (: den watched . buffering is slow ! im still waiting now . but downloading too ! if no internet still can watch (: yay yay yay ! im so happy ! i have been searching for this anime for long . ever since miss luruoting , our ex chinese teacher showed us this anime . it was nice nice nice ! recommended to watch ! (: laputa ; 天空の城ラピュタ ! anime by gong qi jun . gong qi jun animes are niceeeee ! mother didnt allow me to go out & study ): so sian now . well , im going to put down everything ! im somehow , half optimistic , half pessimistic ? hohos . somehow going to sian dao crazy .

(:

2007-09-29T20:06:00.000+08:00

29 september ! today !
woke up around 8plus . came online . 11plus start to prepare . went off . was late . sorry ! meet esther & enqi at rivervale plaza ; kfc to study . shawn was there too . had lunch . started studying . kelvin came . & enqi realised there was a group of girls sitting behind us , keep diao -ing us . we were like , look back , dont care . den 3 of them went out to smoke . den there were many people studying there too . den alot of people on music to listen too . esther thought maybe its our music too loud , den she told kelvin to lower down the volume . den kelvin say alot of people also on , & got one girl very the what lor . den another 3 of their friends heard . when the 3 girls came back , their friends told them . den the girl tried to chuey daiji . she purposely shout loud loud . den she start to call people to come down . den she shout loud loud say , is they start their mouths talking one lor ! den we were like .. IF THEY NEVER STARE AT US , WE WILL SAY AR ?! but didnt say out la . den they keep calling people . call & call & call . den esther ask me want call korkor anot . i was like .. dont call first . see how . den they call & call & call . obviously want chuey daiji . i called korkor . he was sleeping . sorry korkor ! den i told him the whole thing , & where we are . at first , i tell him , not sure isit got people coming down . den they call & call & call ! i was like .. wa ! OBVIOUSLY WANT CHUEY DAIJI ! den i told esther & enqi i going mcdonalds . den i just walked out of kfc . & called korkor . tell him everything . den end call le , jiu went back . the people they find came down . one guy , whom i know who is he ! ren shi de lor ! den korkor came down . he at first diamdiam . den i tell him in details everything . den another guy from their side came down . again ! i know that guy ! it was like .. stupid ! they called two guys to come down , yet i know the both of them ! den the kfc staff chased off that group of girls , cause customers were increasing . den we zi dong lor . also packed stuffs . when we get ready to walk off . we stand up . i turn around , that girl diao -ed me . i diao -ed back her . den walked out . they were waiting for us to come out . den jiu walk out lor . enqi had to go home . den was worrying that they might follow enqi . so , told korkor we want to send enqi home . den korkor say he walk with us until a distance . den walk walk walk . they were following us lor ! den never mind . korkor say dont care . den continue walk . we were a distance from them . den after we crossed the road , one of the girls screamed across the road . den korkor take action . he turn & walk back & shout back , crossed the road . den korkor ask shout for what ? the girl damn humji lor , she denied she shout . den korkor jiu say .. you better dont anyhow shout ar ! they ALL diam diam , even the guys whom they call to come down too . den crossed the road again . den kelvin & shawn sent enqi off . den korkor pei us walk until near a hall there , den he jiu tell us to go off first . den korkor also went off . den esther & me was like .. ohmygod ! dont know anything will happen anot . den we looked korkor crossed the road . den we start to see people wearing white jacket , riding on a bicycle , cycle past korkor . den esther & me jiu .. i think they coming le leh . den esther jiu , faster faster ! go my house . den we run . haha . damn funny lor . when we went into the lift , we were like .. so excited or somehow ? haha . abit siao la . den reached a certain floor , we walked out the lift & look down see they got follow anot . but dont have . den went to esther house . kelvin & shawn was there already . they were looking down too . haha . den went into esther house . sms -ed korkor , ask him anything happened . den he jiu say nothing , but when he walk back , they were still there . den esther say she heard that they say they want go senior citizens corner to study . den it was near ma . jiu tell korkor lor . den was like .. dont care le la . den esther started to play kelvin handphone game . den i was like .. sian . den i played my handphone game . den kelvin say want see my games , den i say i want see his games . den i take from esther , den esther & kelvin were snatching over my phone because of one game . haha . den play play play . keep losing at a stage . den was like .. wa ! pekchek le ! haha . den 6plus le . esther pei us go down . den she went home . den kelvin walked to bus stop , shawn walked to dont know where , den i went up to lrt station . jiu byebye ! (: den took lrt to rumbia . den .. home ! (:

(:

thanks ENQIdarling for the kfc treat ! (:
thanks KORKOR for coming down ! even though you were sleeping then ! (:

sorry ;3 !
it was my first time meeting into this kind of things .
that time quite jin zhang ,
thats why my mind somehow went blank .
only told you about it after that .
sorry !

2007-09-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

be glad .

i did nothing .

but , today one sentence of yours ,

can be able to get yourself into deep trouble .

THINK ! IF YOU DIDNT DID IT TO ME FIRST , WOULD I DO IT TO YOU ?

think & recall !

better be careful with what you are saying .

i may have short term memory ,

but i remembered CLEARLY .

actually , nothing had been settled , then .

but i just didnt want to face it anymore .

as i have said ,

ESCAPING is my forte .

i wont deny ,

i always escape from problems .

cause im just too sad & afraid to face it .

never did i think that ,

for POPULARITY & PEOPLE TO LIKE ,

you would ever did those things .

at first , i closed one eye .

slowly , i closed two eyes .

finally , i OPENED both of my eyes ,

& took up the courage to tell you everything .

i was afraid , after telling you , everything would be gone .

gone as in , we wont be able to be friends anymore ,

or even best friends .
i always said ,

i dont want to think about it anymore ,

i dont want to recall about it anymore ,

i dont want to mention it anymore ,

i dont want it the appear in my life anymore .

but ?

again & again ,

you are trying to make me THINK , RECALL , MENTION & APPEAR IN MY LIFE .

how ?

by badmouthing to others about me ,

by accusing me of causing the break of this friendship ,

by blaming everything on me ,

by trying to make me lose everything in class .

well , I SURVIVED in the class (:

for your info .

you just dont have the guts to say out everything .

you think i cant make you lose everything you have now ?

like how you again & again tried to make me lose everything .

if i want , i can make your situation worser than me .

believe it or not ?

have you ever spared a thought for me ?

i doubt so .

you just insisted of trying to brainwash people to hate me eh ?

you SUCCEEDED in that .

BUT , it only lasted for NOT LONG .
some people are not stupid okkay ?

dont treat them as dumbs .

they are your FRIENDS , yet you treat them as DUMBS ?

contradicting eh ?

they can judge .
all i can say is ,

you dont know me well enough .

we were quite close then ,

yet those who were not close to me ,

KNOW ME WELL .

surprising ?
this would have never came across your mind eh ?

well , you might have SUCCEEDED in making me lose everything in class .

but , you FAILED in convincing them .

use your brain to think ! since you have a clever one .

brainwash will be permanent ?

well , if so , you are really a failure in doing such things .

read up on what is BRAINWASH , before you take action .

i have decided not to bring up anything at all .

unless needed .

HATRED faded long time ago .

but , you light up the matchstick ,

& start up the fire again .

you made my HATRED to come back again .

well , im trying to make it fade now .

hopefully i will succeed .

some people gave me advices ,

& thats why ,

i decided not to bring up anything .

after then ,

it once flashed across my mind this thought ,

will be be friends again ?

even normal friends ,

i will be contented .

as , we were ONCE close friends ?

although now , i still have this thought ,

but it seems harder to be done .

but , in anyway , friends are still friends .

since i ONCE treated you as my friend ,

i FOREVER will treat you as my friend .

it is just that ,

the friendship is fragile ?

probably , you wont treat me as a friend ba .

if so , forget it .

even if i treat you as my friend ,

you wont appreciate it .

so , whats the use ?

but friends are still friends .

& anyway ,

have you ever gone through an experience ,

when you close friend backstab you ?

i doubt so then .

but now , maybe ?

that time ,

when you backstabbed me ,

stabbed deep right into my heart ,

i felt the pain .

i admit ,

i cried .

it is a painful & unwanted experience .

i really hate it .

since it past ,

let bygones be bygones .

unless you want to bring it up to me ,

& confront me .

anytime please (:

& i want to tell you ,

i treat you as my friend .

now , im unsure .

but probably , in future , again ?

unpredictable .

& OPEN YOUR EYES BIG TO SEE THIS ,

THINK before you SAY .

you better THINK .

thats all .

im already very hurt by the stab you stabbed right into me .

maybe some of you cant understand .

its not that i want to cling onto this matter which happened quite long ago ,

its just that ,

i cant forget how im being backstabbed ,

accused ,

as much more .

you think i want to cling on it ?

NO !

i want to forget every bit of this thing .

but YOU again & again tried to be funny eh ?

tried to use a needle to poke it

& let me recall about it again .

but , i REALLY REALLY want to forget about it .

why not someone offer me a kind of medicine ,

which can let me lose my memory .

MEMORY LOST .

& i will never remember about it again .
did you know ,

IM REALLY HURT .

the knife you stabbed into my heart .

the wound might have healed ,

but the scar will forever be there .

it was bleeding profusely before it healed .

arent your conscience telling you that ,

you almost murdered someone ?

i doubt so .

you were so INSISTING on what you told people ,

on what you think so .

have you ever thought for me ?
forget it .

i just hope that some people would understand .

its not that i want to cling onto this matter ,

im trying very hard to forget it .

but , THEY were the ones ,

who again & again ,

dig out everything to try to make me recall & suffer .

a smiling face showed to you ,

normally you will smile back .

but , yet ,

i got back a 'you think i like you ?' face .

this is REALITY .

& i want to escape from it .

i really want to .

2007-09-28T22:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 1st MONTH ; SEEN ! (:

28 september ! today !
woke up . prepared . walked to school . assembly . chinese ! was chatting throughout the whole lesson ! lang arts ! edit formal writing . movieeeee ! howl 's moving castle ! watched finish . NICE NICE NICE ! (: recess ! after recess , went back class . saw zisheng & cheechoon [spelled like that ?] & their friends i think in OUR CLASS . cheechoon sit my place . i was like .. looking at him , wondering whats happening . den he look at me , say .. this one your place ar ? i was like .. uberden ? den i turn to the next table which was zhiyang 's table . zisheng sit there flipping through zhiyang 's file & was saying .. wa ! this person 's file very luan , help him pack . i was like .. look at him . oi . den he say .. what ? something went wrong with my mind . i should be replying , yet i suddenly thought that i need to tell someone something . den i go find that person . haha . den tell le , turn around , all disappear -.- science ! mdm jamaliah absent . mrs julia lim take over . but mrs quek came in to talk to us about our streaming for sec3 . the choices are like .. WOW ! dont know what to choose -.- math ! FAILED MY MATH TEST UNTIL VERY JIALAT ! OHMYGOD ! damn sad ! ): one paper 6 ; 16 , another one 5 ; 15 ! OHMYGOD ! i have to chiong alot for math ! dismissed ! lunch with esther natalie & enqi ! somehow my taste buds went wrong ? couldnt take in chilli stuffs . guai guai one ! den i was like .. DESIRING FOR COLD WATER ! haha . lrt -ed to ranggung . natalie alighted at sengkang & went home . den me & esther went to enqi house . STUDY STUDY STUDY ! study halfway , somehow lost concentration . but got it back quite soon ? haha . thanks ESTHER & ENQI DARLING for teaching me math ! (: 6plus , left enqi house . went to econ buy sweets ! den took lrt . den .. home ! (:

(:

dear , iloveyou .
forever till eternity .

2007-09-27T20:28:00.001+08:00

oh , i see .
that is it eh ?
there will be more to it .
when you reached my limits .. (:

2007-09-27T19:10:00.000+08:00

27 september ! today !
woke up . prepared . walked to school . walk halfway , RAIN ! as im walking to school it got HEAVIER ! den once walk out of carpark , totally drenched ! so colddddd ! went to washroom . den went to locker . saw kewei & brenda . was chatting . den they went off first . waited for natalie . NO SIGHT OF HER ! den music going to end , jiu walk back class . ITS COLDDDDD ! borrowed teens magazine from kewei to read . thanks KEWEI ! geography ! ozone depletion . worksheets . pe ! vampire game ? captains ball . i was merely following the crowd (: recess ! math ! got back math standardised test ! 15 ; 30 ! JUST PASSED ! (: fortunately ! science ! abortion article . did group work with siliang , kewei , brenda & chaiyuan . TOTALLY CORRUPTED ! (: ohmygod ! haha . lang arts ! chatting with kewei & brenda . movieeeee ! howl 's moving castle ! (: dismissed ! meet esther natalie & enqi . natalie went home . den esther & enqi came my house to study (: cooked instant noodles for them ! haha . study study study . while study , chat ! hohos . thanks ESTHER & ENQI DARLINGS for helping me in my studies ! (: they recommended me to some games . i was like .. very fast die . haha ! den they went home . later maybe going to study on math again ! (: jiayou for exams ! (:

(:

2007-09-26T21:02:00.000+08:00

26 september ! today !
woke up . prepared . walked to school . FORGOT TO EAT MEDICINE AGAIN ! OHMYGOD LA ! assembly ! math ! linear graph + simultaneous equation . luan ! lang arts ! formal letter writing ! movieeeee ! howl 's moving castle ! recess ! d&t ! hand in presentation board ! FINALLY ! FREE FROM PROJECTS ! (: art ! paint . zhaolong so funny lor . haha ! dismissed ! went to locker . was chatting with natalie . den when want go find esther & enqi . saw them walking out of school . den shout to call them . haha . den .. home ! (: meet ;3 ! lunch at rivervale mall ; foodcourt . walk walk . bought bubble tea ! like long time never drink le . hohos . den went playground . chat chat chat . den .. home ! (: im guai okkay ? did homework ! hohos ! these few days head like heavy heavy , going to faint anytime . i think im going to die ! haha !

(:

2007-09-25T19:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL ! (:

25 september ! today !
woke up . prepared . went out . walked to school . assembly ! geography ! slept throughout the whole lesson . when i woke up , mr tay appeared infront of me , giving worksheets . den he tell me , you better get all questions correct if you want to sleep . i was like .. dont care la ! so damn tired can ! lang arts ! formal letter ! recess ! lce ! adoption or abortion ? science ! chapter 7 ! abortion is so cruel ! chinese ! slept throughout the whole lesson again ! at first , started sleeping , xiao lao shi tell me , bu yao shui le ar . i was like .. dont care la ! sleeeeeeeeeeep ! (: woke up when nearing dissmisal . cause need to do zuo ye . dismissed ! walked to compass point with esther , natalie , enqi & darlinginlaw . lunch at mcdonalds ! natalie spotted mr richard ! & we were like OMGOMGOMG ! howhowhow ? before we can do anything , he walked in le . uh oh ! den natalie accidentally bought an extra meal . den nobody eat ma . den jiu say , mr richard , we treat you , got extra . haha . den he say he dont want , den tell us eat le jiu faster go . den he went off . natalie was like .. i thinking mr richard is trying to hint us something or what ? maybe hinting us that teachers will be coming to check ? den she pa pa . say want faster go home . wanjingPIAOLIANGJIEJIE came . den she eat the extra meal (: haha . den natalie & enqi left . den went to comics connection . bought SOMETHING ! (: den went to mini toons . den popular . wanjing went to find her book . i went to take paper . bought it for SOME REASONS ! (: hohos . secretive eh ? den walked around . walk until banquet there , suddenly stopped & somehow formed a circle & stoned there . asking each other , now what ? go where ? do what ? want go home ? end up . went to sit at the corridor there chat chat chat . ;3 actually want come . but he had something on ): wanjing took taxi & left . den esther took lrt . i took bus . while waiting for bus , saw simon ! he was with his friend . we were taking the same bus ! bus 86 came . board bus . den reached , alight . den .. home ! (: chiong -ed d&t presentation board ! FINALLY ! DONE ! (: chat with ;3 on phone . dinner was steamboat . stomach pain ! didnt have appetite ): den came online . pain pain ! ):

(:

2007-09-24T15:51:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINGWEN ! (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANU ! (:

24 september ! today !
woke up . prepared . tie shoelace . revise for math standardised test . went off . walked to school . revise revise revise ! didnt have time to revise yesterday ): changed classroom . cause cindy injured her toe . f1-01 . math standardised test ! im going to fail ! ): history ! worksheet . recess ! math ! linear graph ; gradient . rise & run . haha . lang arts ! got back lang arts standardised test ! 14 ; 25 ! lucky pass ! (: movieeeee ! howl 's moving castle ! chinese ! left textbook in locker . me , kewei & brenda walked out of class . to take book . den strolled to toilet . den strolled back class . was very sian ! den slept . dismissed ! lunch with esther natalie & enqi ! went off with esther . walked to compass point . den zhelin tell esther got teachers at compass point . esther didnt want to risk . jiu went home . saw simon , munir & arthur ? think so ba . den saw zhenghao going down escalator . den .. home ! (:

(:

2007-09-24T00:05:00.000+08:00

24 september ! today !
woke up . came online . prepared . went out . went clarke quay with family . jumbo ! nice nice ! my aunt say i need 2hours to eat the claw of a crab . i was like .. very difficult to kiap you know ? haha ! went off . suntec city ! aunt wanted to buy baby things for her unborn baby ! maybe giving birth next week ! hohos ! another new baby cousin (: boy ! my uncle bought a 1gb memory card for me ! happy happy ! (: ate icecream at gelare . went carrefour . aunt bought baby things . den went to aunt house . uncle da bao dinner outside & bought home . dinner ! den .. home ! (: chiong -ed for standardised test ! study study study !

(:

thanks DARLINGS for all encouragements ! ILOVEMYDARLINGSTONS ! (:
thanks ;3 for encouragements too ! (:

2007-09-23T10:53:00.000+08:00

sometimes , things are meant to be left unknown .
two sides of a person , can be very scary .
here , that person treats you damn good .
there , that person attitudes you .
is this person meant to be trusted ?
you 've probably put all your trust on that person .
but disappointment is what you get in return .
you want to escape from reality ,
i want too .
but , think .
escaping is the only way ?
why not sort things out ?
somehow , some things should be sorted out ,
while some shouldnt be .
to that person* , if you know who you are ;
cheer up ! (: things will get better !
i faced this problem once . & it was like .. years ago (:
since its over , i wouldnt want to remember it .
however , if i were the one who needs to make the decision ,
i would choose to escape .
its my forte (:
cause , i dont want to remember it anymore .

* not my darlings (:
just a friend , who is trustable .
& im honoured to have this friend (:

2007-09-22T19:05:00.000+08:00

21 september ! ; later

went out ! mrt -ed to hougang ! meet grandmother & mother . dinner at hougang mall ; kopitiam . nice nice ! walked around . saw many many nice clothes ! my mother say when she got her pay , she will bring me go buy CLOTHES ! (: yay yay yay ! walked around . den mrt -ed to sengkang . saw SHANNON & her friend ! shannon so pretty ! (: her friend too ! chio bu leh ! den lrt -ed to rumbia . den .. home ! (:

22 september ! today !

woke up at 845am ! prepared . went to ntuc to buy some things . den went home . lrt -ed to sengkang . meet ;3 outside banquet ! (: breakfast at kfc . den went to popular . bought that milk candy . ;3 also bought . den walked to ;3 house . watched death note 2 ! nice nice ! but sad ending ): den walked to compass point . bought mcflurry . ;3 pei -ed me walk home . den .. home ! (: prepared . walked to bus stop . took bus 88 . taxi -ed to aunt house . dinner here . later going to ti deng long -.- kaihong called me .

kaihong : hey ! you got come ?

me : nope , at aunt house .

kaihong : sad ..

me : yalor . sad ..

I WANT TO GO BACK RVPS LA !! long time never see my friends le ! ): miss them tons !

(:

2007-09-21T15:43:00.000+08:00

HEYS ! ANYONE INTERESTED IN GOING OUR BAND CONCERT ? (:

COMPASSVALE MILITARY BAND CONCERT
victoria concert hall
15 december 2007 ; saturday
7pm
stall seat : $10
circle seat : $15

INTERESTED ?!
tag ; sms ; call ; msn ; tell ME ! (:

2007-09-21T13:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANNON ! (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUXIN ! (:

21 september ! today !
woke up . prepared . walked to school . assembly ! chinese ! xiao lao shi crazy one . stare at me so long . den suddenly ask me answer question . i thought what . lang arts ! poetry ! movieeeee ! howl 's moving castle ! nice nice ! (: recess ! science ! same chapter . math ! linear graph ! draw until i pekchek ! keep erasing . dismissed ! went locker . walked to lrt . den .. home ! (:

(:

2007-09-20T18:54:00.001+08:00

MY BIRTHDAY ! (:

; PRESENTS

KORKOR & JIEJIE give one ! ILOVEIT !

MIGHTY HORNISTS ! (: ILOVEYOUGUYS !

BIRTHDAYcake from FAMILY (:

LIGHTEDcandles

for the first time , my mother remembered my birthday (:

2007-09-20T18:29:00.001+08:00

ILOVEYOU .

ME (:

ME [:

CUTEEEEE !

(: took it during lesson .

DARLINGS & DARLING-IN-LAWS are LOVES !

PEIYUN & SIMIN with our BAOBEI FRENCH HORN !

FRENCH HORN is LOVED !

me & baby brother , darryl !

heLOVESthisSWEET !

smile !

shy baby (:

BITEbiteBITEbite

darlings after SYF (:

me & esther at KIDDY PALACE (:

me & natalie at HOUGANG MALL ; neoprint machine (:

long long agooooo ..

long long ago ..

2007-09-20T18:07:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIFAA ! (:

20 september ! today !
woke up . prepared . walked to school . assembly ! reading ! geography ! did poster with kayyuan . my mind is dead ! pe ! frisbee again ! i was like .. just following the crowd ! (: den boys turn to play . sit there slack . cheer leading group eh ? haha ! recess ! math ! linear graph ! drawing graphs are like .. so ' FUN ' (: science ! sexual reproductive in humans . mdm jamaliah keep showing the embryo & baby & this & that . lang arts ! poetry ! did at home le (: im guai ? hohos . den slacked . dismissed ! meet esther natalie & enqi ! (: saw jesselyn . mrt -ed to hougang ! natalie treat ajisen ! (: nice nice ! esther & me was like .. laughing non stop ! long time never like that le . den chat chat chat . four of us laughed like siao ! hohos ! bill ! went to popular . bought materials for d&t presentation board ! natalie bus -ed home . esther enqi & me mrt -ed to sengkang . went up to lrt platform , ;3 called me . he was at compass point too ! with may & arthur . den jiu went to meet him . MAY ! dont scared dont scared ! (: chat chat chat . went off . ;3 pei -ed me walk home . den .. home ! (:

(:

thanks NATALIEdarling for the treat ! (:
thanks my FOUR LOVELY DARLINGS for today ! (:

2007-09-19T21:26:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XUEHAN ! (:

19 september ! today !
woke up . prepared . walked to school . civics tutorial ! but lce took over instead . was like .. early in the morning get lectured . spoiled the starting of the day ): math ! linear graph ! trying to understand ? lang arts ! poetry homework ! miss yeow is the best ! (: she gave us her lesson time to do d&t ! so chiong -ed ! recess ! d&t ! presentation ! fourth group to present ! wasnt feeling nervous eh ? first time ! dont know why . didnt memorise . my mind cannot stuff anything anymore . read from script lor . somehow tongue tied halfway ? 22 ; 30 ! (: art ! stabilise the base of the paper dont know what . den cut out the shape . dismissed ! walked home ! prepared . walked to compass point . meet ;3 at 7eleven ! (: went to popular . bought LONG RULER ! went to basement1 . ask ;3 help me buy kfc . den walked to ;3 house . ;3 play dota . den i see him play lor . yi bian see , yi bian eat . den watched 200 pounds beauty ! yesterday night watched le . cried like siao ! touching lor . den watched secret ! went off . ;3 pei me take bus . bus 163 ! den .. home ! (: dinner ! homework ! guai eh ? haha ! den came online .

(:

;3 , IHATESARDINE !! ):